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We’ve covered what “born again” means: not judging, but feeling and sharing unconditional love for all; and why we need it: without love, we sabotage ourselves and everyone else; and how to achieve it: be mindful, and accept the billions of other lives, all needing and worthy of dignity, respect, forgiveness, and compassion.

“Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. / For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”-Matthew 11:29, 30.

Despite what Jesus said, we find little about his yoke that is easy or light: mostly because we aren’t meek and lowly in heart, and our souls are anything but restful.

Let us say we do reach that point, what, in the Parable of the Sower, Jesus called “the good ground.” We work and work, until we achieve, through grace and sacrifice, what should be easy; and we are reborn. Then begins our most difficult trial.

When we succeed, our pride swells. With pride as our guide, we fail. Until we learn how to maintain humility in God’s presence, and practice unconditional compassion, and automatic forgiveness, then we’ll have to be reborn again and again.

“The kingdom of heaven is like unto a certain king, which made a marriage for his son.”-Matthew 22:2.

We studied this marriage last time. We are the bride, and Jesus is the groom; we are the life, and love makes us whole. This parable doesn’t mention the bride. But that’s because we have other parts to play.

God is the king. And since God is love, then love presides over the kingdom of heaven. As Jesus told Nicodemus:

“…Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.”-John 3:3.

So we understand love by feeling and practicing mercy, compassion, forgiveness, acceptance, and respect; and when we learn to do these things naturally, we are reborn.

Jesus is the king’s son. He is the door, and we must pass through his lessons of our own free will, in order to reach the kingdom.

“I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture.”-John 10:9.

To find rest for our souls, all we have to do is follow the example Jesus gave us.

“And [the king] sent forth his servants to call them that were bidden to the wedding: and they would not come.”-Matthew 22:3.

God calls us to love one another: This is the invitation. If we accept, we are born again; through our actions, we invite others.

This is the first path: the servant.

With our wedding, we commit to a life of love, for better or worse, together. But first, we choose to accept or decline the groom. When we say yes to Jesus, then we become the bride, and the servant. These roles combine, as we minister to others; with our comforting of them, we invite them too.

Now we switch to the second path: the invited. After we’re born again, servants come to offer us a chance to show loving kindness.

How we react to the invitation determines our path.

When we’re offered the chance to love life, and we say no, we harm ourselves.

“The merciful man doeth good to his own soul: but he that is cruel troubleth his own flesh.”-Proverbs 11:17.

No matter how others treat us, if we react with love, then we accept the groom’s proposal. We enter the kingdom of heaven, and live a wonderful life.

No matter how others treat us, if we react with hate, if we refuse to forgive, and be compassionate and merciful, we harm ourselves.

When we deny the groom, we deprive ourselves of heaven. Then, we live a hellish life.

“Behold, I have refined thee, but not with silver; I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction.”-Isaiah 48:10.

This tribulation afflicts and refines us. We resort to this drastic method so we learn how someone else feels, when they hurt: So that, next time, we’ll comfort them when they need it; we’ll accept the invitation, react wisely, and enter the kingdom of heaven.

“Again, he sent forth other servants, saying, Tell them which are bidden, Behold, I have prepared my dinner: my oxen and my fatlings are killed, and all things are ready: come unto the marriage.”-Matthew 22:4.

One fatling (or fattened calf) would feed an entire village. So multiple fatlings, and oxen too, made a huge, country-wide feast, which celebrated the king’s son getting married, and the propagation of the king’s reign: spreading the word.

Remember, the king invited the people who had already been reborn. After a difficult trial, they succeeded in winning the king’s favor. He honored them, and expected them to honor his son.

“But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.”-John 4:14.

God blesses us with everlasting life. God is love, and love is life, which is all around us. For the Hebrews, “everlasting” water meant flowing water. So everlasting life flows from one person to another, a cascading waterfall, gentle brook, the thunder of an ocean, and pouring of a cool drink.

We flow into each other, whether we know it or not, believe it or not, want to or not. For better or worse, we influence others, and shape the quality of all life around us. Acceptance of this awesome responsibility is the door to the kingdom of heaven.

To honor the king’s son, we love one another, as he loves us.

“If any man serve me, let him follow me; and where I am, there shall also my servant be: if any man serve me, him will my Father honour.”-John 12:26.

If we commit to this flowing life, which circulates from God, to Jesus, to us, and back again, then God invites us to the marriage. The feast celebrates our covenant: to cherish, honor, and not even in death do we part.

Refusal of his invitation insults the king. And insulting the king is treason.

“But they [who were invited] made light of it, and went their ways, one to his farm, another to his merchandise.”-Matthew 22:5.

Remember, the people who refused the king’s servants were already born again. They had gained the king’s favor, and received an invitation to the wedding.

Then their pride took hold of them.

“When pride cometh, then cometh shame: but with the lowly is wisdom.”-Proverbs 11:2.

They chose to honor their farms and merchandise, what they accomplished on their own. After all, we need our jobs to support our families; and we feel pride in taking care of our own.

Happiness and pride differ greatly, though we often use them interchangeably. By being happy with our success, we also show gratitude for our daily bread. With happiness, we honor life; with pride, we worship our own greatness.

“Their land also is full of idols; they worship the work of their own hands, that which their own fingers have made.”-Isaiah 2:8.

Remember, Jesus is “meek and lowly in heart.” Without reverence for God, for all things, we cannot enter the kingdom of heaven. We cannot bow, in meek reverence, if we’re prideful.

When we’re reborn, then we love as God does, as Jesus taught.

“He that saith he abideth in him ought himself also so to walk, even as he walked.”-1 John 2:6.

But, we say, if I don’t tend the farm, or work in the store, my family doesn’t eat. First I have to take care of my family and myself, and then donate what’s left to others.

We never finish looking out for ourselves, or caring for our loved ones. The store needs stocking, and the field needs plowing, every day.

“…No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.”-Luke 9:62.

So how can we look forward to others, if we’re always looking back on ourselves?

Since God is everything, love for all is the only way to neglect nothing. That’s why Jesus wants us to seek God first.

“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”-Matthew 6:33.

By loving God, we love everyone and everything all at once. Jesus gives and teaches us this divine love; in return, we honor his (and our) union with all life.

Keep in mind, whether we pass or fail doesn’t matter, compared to how we react to the test. After they refused the king’s invitation the second time, “the invited” returned to their businesses.

But some went too far, and reacted with hate.

“And the remnant took his servants, and entreated them spitefully, and slew them.”-Matthew 22:6.

Back then, the king’s messenger was exempted from harm. Killing him was a crime worthy of death. The proverb still exists today: You don’t “kill the messenger.”

Why? Because we aren’t just killing the servant, who represents the king. Really, we’re destroying the message he delivers. In this case, we murder the celebration of love.

“He that receiveth whomsoever I send receiveth me; and he that receiveth me receiveth him that sent me.”-John 13:20.

If we reject the king’s authority, then we renounce his rule, and remove ourselves from his protection, and the abundance of his kingdom.

This is the definition of sin.

So far, Jesus has set two paths before us. As servants, after we’re reborn, we spread the good news (the Old English word is “gospel”). But, if we take the other path, if we’re invited but refuse to tend to each other, we stifle the sharing of the gospel. The former we call ministry; and the latter, sin.

When we refuse to share and receive love, for whatever reason, we pay the ultimate price.

“But when the king heard thereof, he was wroth: and he sent forth his armies, and destroyed those murderers, and burned up their city.”-Matthew 22:7.

Conquerors burn resistant cities. And love conquers all.

If we exalt ourselves above the king, then we put what we want before the whole world. God humbles us, and forces us to confront our selfishness. Then, when we admit that we refused to accept and share with others, and rejected our angelic potential, we destroy our city of sin.

When we say God burns our cities, we actually mean that our refusal of loving kindness ruined us. We brought disaster on ourselves.

As John the Baptist said of Jesus:

“…I indeed baptize you with water; but one mightier than I cometh, the latchet of whose shoes I am not worthy to unloose: he shall baptize you with the Holy Ghost and with fire.”-Luke 3:16.

When we see how we suffered, then we know how others feel when they’re in pain. As we hope for someone to help us, so we understand that others need us.

This is the baptism of fire.

We reap what we sow. We reflect the love or hate others project on us, and vice versa. If they’re mean to us, we’re mean to them. Hate begets hate; but love defeats hate. We can choose to break the chain.

If we kill the messenger, we reject and destroy not only the love God offers us, but the potential for us to be messengers (the Greek word for which is “angelos”). If we deny love, then we reject the better angels of our nature; and, therefore, we condemn ourselves.

“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”-Proverbs 3:5.

Until we are reborn, we learn everything incorrectly: Our sustenance is selfishness; our goals, temporary. But when we nourish ourselves with God’s will, by accepting instead of judging, our burden becomes much lighter.

However painful and heavy at first, this process humbles us, and teaches us how to be worthy of the invitation to the marriage of all life.

“Then saith [the king] to his servants, The wedding is ready, but they which were bidden were not worthy.”-Matthew 22:8.

How do we become worthy? How do we achieve the blessing of God’s invitation?

From The Vulgate (the late 4th century Latin translation of the Bible), the word beati (plural of beatus) means “blessings.” That’s where we get “beatitudes.”

During his sermon on the mount (Matt. 5:3-12), Jesus points out the effects and importance of humility, which result from the blessing of being born again.

Blessed are the following: the poor in spirit, they who mourn, the meek, they who hunger and thirst for righteousness, the merciful, the pure in heart, peacemakers, and they who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake.

In other words, people who are humbled, and pass through the baptism of fire, but react to their apocalypse with wisdom and loving kindness. These are only examples of how to reach that end result. There are as many paths to being born again as there are people.

“Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.”-Matthew 7:20.

We are worthy when we realize that what we thought were curses, are actually blessings. Our tribulation allows us to understand suffering, which leads to our blessing of others.

As God gave us strength and faith, which lifted us out of affliction (which God gave us), so we should comfort others (who God gave us). As Jesus feeds our souls with love and acceptance, so we should nourish and nurture others. We do so because it is all God.

We are all a piece of the puzzle, a part, and an aspect of the cosmos. We are small circles, inside a larger, universal circle. So when we harm or help a single part, then we do the same to the whole. Thus, we bring pain or joy on ourselves, and build or burn our cities.

The invited guests weren’t ready, and lost everything. Remember, we are the servants, when we’re born again and bless others. We’re also the invited, who were reborn, grew prideful, and then rejected the offer to share and receive love.

In this parable, we have a third role or path: the uninvited.

“Go ye therefore into the highways, and as many as ye shall find, bid to the marriage. / So those servants went out into the highways, and gathered together all as many as they found, both bad and good: and the wedding was furnished with guests.”-Matthew 22:9, 10.

When we’re reborn, God invites us to love one another. If we accept, and say yes to Jesus, then we marry all life; we become servants of loving kindness: We share and receive compassion, forgiveness, mercy, and respect with and from everyone and everything.

If we say no, if we refuse to see how we need each other, then we no longer experience the joys of compassion.

The terms good and bad apply to decisions, individual reactions; they are not equal to identity. We aren’t good or bad people; we just make good and bad decisions, with our mindful or mindless reactions.

Before we become servants, we are the invited. Before opportunities invite us, we are the uninvited. So, at one time or another, we are all three paths.

The opportunities present themselves with as many people as we find. Everyone is uninvited, until we invite them.

“We love him, because he first loved us.”-1 John 4:19.

When we’re born again, we marry everyone and everything. Abuse results in divorce. But patience, acceptance, forgiveness, and compassion, i.e., love results in a happy marriage, a beautiful life for all.

Keep in mind, wolves circle our flock, waiting and searching for the weak. We have the potential to do each other great harm, even (or especially) when we act in Jesus’ name.

“…yea, the time cometh, that whosoever killeth you will think that he doeth God service.”-John 16:2.

Not everyone accepts what we offer.

“And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear you, when ye depart thence, shake off the dust under your feet for a testimony against them. Verily I say unto you, It shall be more tolerable for Sodom and Gomorrha in the day of judgment, than for that city.”-Mark 6:11.

Jesus told this to his apostles, as he sent them out to spread the word. When we say yes, we become apostles. We do what we can, but we must allow every person to determine their own path, and covenant with life. If they aren’t ready, then plant the seed, and walk on.

When we say yes, we accept all things, even rejection. We do this because, when we reject someone, we want them to respect our path.

When we say no, we set ourselves up for disappointment and tribulation. Without the love offered by others, we have nothing to hold onto, when the floods come.

If we react wisely to the apocalypse we bring on ourselves, we learn how much we need each other, and how much others need us.

With every interaction, we are born again, through our acceptance or rejection. We cycle through everlasting life, becoming new all the time. Therefore, no one is without hope, or above mistakes.

“As the living Father hath sent me, and I live by the Father: so he that eateth me, even he shall live by me.”-John 6:57.

This cycle shows us how easy it is to live without despair and hatred. Just love one another, as God loves Jesus, and Jesus loves us; that’s all. But that simplicity circulates through complexity; the finite flows through the infinite. How impossible it is to love everyone! So we pass from the kingdom of heaven to a burnt and decimated city.

Then we see how simple our mistake was. We forgot to accept the marriage of our will to the wills of everyone else. Life becomes beautiful again. Then we realize how impossible it is to combine what we want from a marriage, with what everyone else wants.

So many people; so many covenants!

Like Pilate, we wash our hands of Jesus, and surrender his love to the bloodthirsty mob. And we’re back to a heartless life. We wail and gnash our teeth, until we swear to try harder. We succeed, then succumb to pride, which we mistake for happiness.

Pride usurps humility; so when we serve, it is for our own ends, and not for the well-being of our marriage. The uninvited sense our lack of universal love, and reject us; then, in our confusion and frustration, we surrender to hopelessness.

“Watch ye and pray, lest ye enter into temptation. The spirit truly is ready, but the flesh is weak.”-Mark 14:38.

We must accept weakness, just as we say yes to everything else in our marriage. Take it in stride, because we know that we’ll make a new covenant. We’ll rise from the ashes of our self-sabotage. Faith in ourselves and others will breathe into us new, everlasting life.

We are reborn again and again.


Kingdom of Heaven: 10 Virgins

(This one is a little long, about 19 pages. I recommend more bite-sized chunks: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three. You can always reach these again by going to the Intro/Contents link at the top of the page, and clicking on the title of this essay in the contents.)

We choose how to react to our experiences. Whether thoughtlessly or mindfully, we bear the responsibility of adding another link to the chain, or breaking it to be born again.

“Then shall the kingdom of heaven be likened unto ten virgins, which took their lamps, and went forth to meet the bridegroom.”-Matthew 25:1.

Jesus shares this parable right in the middle of his discourse on the Second Coming, and the destruction of Jerusalem (which happened in 70 A.D., some 37 years after his crucifixion). That’s what he refers to, when he begins with “Then….”

So this parable applies to, and elucidates what Jesus said about “Judgment Day.” The kingdom of heaven results from the destruction of our world. Or, more personally, we are born again when we participate in the marriage between love and life.

Indeed, Revelation (the final book in the Bible) climaxes with the union between us and Jesus.

“Let us be glad and rejoice, and give honour to him: for the marriage of the Lamb is come, and his wife hath made herself ready.”-Revelation 19:7.

We make ourselves ready by acknowledging the folly of our pride, arrogance, and cruelty. When life tears us down, we learn and change from the experience. We either double-down on our foolishness, or gain wisdom: We choose our path based on how we react to apocalyptic experiences.

Jesus is the bridegroom.

“But the days will come, when the bridegroom shall be taken away from them, and then shall they fast in those days.”-Luke 5:35.

More personally, Jesus is our love for one another: the wisdom to understand that, without love, we are weak; without love, we fake strength, which causes sin. So when someone wrongs us (or we harm them), we know it’s because of their (or our) weakness.

We do not punish the weak, because then we would need to condemn ourselves as well.

“…He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.”-John 8:7.

We are all mortal, and ignorant of what lies outside our experience. So mercy, compassion, and forgiveness should occur automatically. This requires us to be mindful, and practice love at all times. This is wisdom.

We’ve been working on “the kingdom of heaven” for several essays now. Basically, we are in the kingdom if we react wisely to Jesus’ lessons. The kingdom is our understanding of his lessons, and our commitment to live by them.

“…for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.”-Luke 17:21.

So the kingdom is the love we feel and share. It is the potential within us, the realization of our better nature, our very heart, soul, mind, and strength.

“The ten virgins” represent all of us, the whole spectrum of humanity. Recall the first verse of a previous “kingdom” essay.

“Again the kingdom of heaven is like unto a net, that was cast into the sea, and gathered of every kind.”-Matthew 13:47.

From every kind, the angels separate the good fish from the bad, and the wheat from the tares. In the very next verse, as we’ve seen in previous essays, the virgins actually separate themselves, based on what they learned (or didn’t learn) from experience, how they react to their preparation for the marriage.

Our final term, in this first verse, is the “lamp” that each virgin carries. We’ll look deeper into this one as we go.

For now, let us note that all ten virgins, all of us, we all carry a lamp.

“And five of them were wise, and five were foolish.”-Matthew 25:2.

Right away, in this second verse, we see the point of the parable. Don’t misunderstand the terms. No one is all good, or all bad. Sometimes, we make foolish decisions, or we react wisely. Sometimes, we do the right thing; other times, the wrong thing.

We must be born again to see our variability, and mindful enough to commit to one or the other. Through our marriage with the Lamb, and our personal covenant with life, we dedicate ourselves to the pursuit of wisdom, and are, thereby, reborn. Like inertia, love struggles to begin, but continues easily, once we get moving.

If we react wisely to tribulation, the kingdom of heaven follows. Wisdom is understanding why we need love, mercy, compassion, and forgiveness: It was the lack of them that brought us to our day of reckoning.

Wisdom can be hard to define. Luckily, we have King Solomon. As the son and heir of King David (and Jesus’ ancestor), when the Lord appeared to him, and asked him what he wanted, this is what he said:

“Give therefore thy servant an understanding heart to judge thy people, that I may discern between good and bad….”-1 Kings 3:9.

If you could ask anything of God, and know that the Lord would grant your request, what would you ask for? Solomon had wisdom before God granted his wish for it. This is true of us all.

Jesus (our love within) takes what we offer (our talent), and multiplies our few loaves and fish, allowing us to feed thousands. If we use wisdom in being kind to others, we gain more.

“And God gave Solomon wisdom and understanding exceeding much, and largeness of heart, even as the sand that is on the sea shore.”-1 Kings 4:29.

For now, we note that wisdom is understanding, discerning honestly between good and bad. It is largeness of heart: such a great empathy that it could be likened to all the sand on the shores of every beach in the world.

With understanding, we don’t have to agree or approve. We just need to see and feel others so deeply, that we know why they did what they did. Leave yourself behind. When trying to understand someone, judge based on their thoughts and feelings, not yours.

If we practice this mindfully, it occurs automatically, and our understanding will be instinctive. This is wisdom.

“They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them. / But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps.”-Matthew 25:3, 4.

Jesus develops the parable quickly, defining and distinguishing wisdom and foolishness: We behave wisely when we prepare, and foolishly when we do not make ourselves ready.

“And this know, that if the goodman of the house had known what hour the thief would come, he would have watched, and not have suffered his house to be broken through.”-Luke 12:39.

We don’t know when disaster will strike, or when we’ll have the opportunity to forgive, show mercy and compassion. It’s like the musician’s nightmare: suddenly called onto stage, in front of a packed house, and given an instrument they don’t know how to play.

We can’t prepare for every eventuality. We’re unable to learn every instrument, and maintain familiarity with them at all times. But we can learn the basics of musicianship, and love.

“…Behold, the fear [reverence] of the Lord, that is wisdom; and to depart from evil is understanding.”-Job 28:28.

God is all things. So to revere the Lord is to admire and respect all things. That is the Bible’s main point. If we choose to love and respect everyone and everything, and do so mindfully at all times, that is wisdom. Or, rather, it’s the first step along the path. As Solomon wrote:

“The fear [reverence] of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction.”-Proverbs 1:7.

The translations for the last two quotes are a little misleading. By fear, what they meant to write (as we’d use the word today) is reverence. Don’t be afraid of sharing love, or rejoicing in life. Love God with all your heart, mind, soul, and strength. This is reverence.

The “lamps” that the virgins carried were actually torches.

Around the top of the torch, they wrapped rags soaked in oil; with enough in reserve, the torch lasted for several hours. The foolish virgins lit their torches, but failed to carry any extra oil with them. So their light wouldn’t last for long.

“Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.”-John 8:12.

Jesus said he was many things, but the most common and often-repeated metaphor was light. Throughout the millennia, many religious and spiritual practices understood light as synonymous with nirvana, enlightenment, and being reborn.

So the lamps (or torches) produce light, which is Jesus, who is love. The oil maintains light. So love perseveres via the display of light, and the reapplication of rags soaked in oil.

Like inertia, our sharing of love makes it easier for us to continue sharing it. But if we don’t choose to shine our light on others, if, instead, we allow their cold hearts to influence our reactions, then love becomes almost impossible.

Remember the Parable of the Sower:

“But he that received the seed into stony places, the same is he that heareth the word, and anon with joy receiveth it; / Yet hath he not root in himself, but dureth for a while: for when tribulation or persecution ariseth because of the word, by and by he is offended.”-Matthew 13:20, 21.

In other words, when Jesus lights our torch, at first we feel love, if we are ready to receive it. But when someone else does something hateful and spiteful, they offend the foolish virgins; and, with no extra oil (without forgiveness), tribulation extinguishes love.

Don’t be too frustrated with yourself because of this. In the different kinds of soil that Jesus describes, the best of us live on stony ground. We hear and feel the Word, and love all things. But we are lambs among wolves.

Jesus warned us of this.

“And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.”-Matthew 24:12.

We react based on how others treat us: cause and effect. This is natural. But the Bible (and Jesus’ lessons specifically) exist to warn us of our instinctive, but harmful behavior.

So if we sin because others sin against us, then, instead, we can choose to break the chain. We can forgive those who trespass against us, and thereby forgive and confront our own weaknesses. We can remove the stones from our ground, and out of our hearts, transforming temporary love (limited fuel) into perpetual motion, by choosing to accept and reflect the unending love of God, which is all around us.

“Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves.”-Matthew 10:16.

When we carry extra oil, then we react to the wolves around us by being wise as serpents and harmless as doves: having a strong mind and tender heart.

If we let our minds weaken, or our hearts become like stone, then we add another link to the chain, and separate ourselves from the good fish, the nourishing wheat. This is foolishness.

God is everything. So love is everything, everywhere. In other words, we fuel our torches just by reaching out with mercy, compassion, and forgiveness.

This takes practice. Be patient with your patience.

Before we move on, note that Jesus is both the bridegroom and the light given by the lamps. More personally, mindfulness of mercy and compassion lights the torch. Our love for one another illuminates the way. And forgiveness renews the flame.

“While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept.”-Matthew 25:5.

Everything takes time. Don’t panic! With patience, we learn humility; with humility, we learn reverence; and with reverence, we gain wisdom.

When the Jewish couple of Jesus’ time were to be married, the virgins kept the bride company, at the bride’s parents’ house. They waited for the groom, who could be held up for any number of reasons: working out the dowry, making arrangements at his parents’ house. No one knew when everything would be ready, when the groom would come for the bride.

The groom could arrive that night, the next night, or not for a couple of weeks. Nobody knew for sure. Part of the fun for the groom was to surprise the bridal party, even catch them napping.

“Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.”-Psalm 27:14.

Going back as far as their Babylonian exile, the Hebrews were convinced that God had forsaken them.

“… for they say, The LORD hath forsaken the earth, and the LORD seeth not.”-Ezekiel 9:9.

In other words, the groom didn’t just tarry, he left us at the altar.

No matter how many times God proves that he will not abandon us, we surrender when things go wrong. This is natural. Even Jesus (quoting Psalm 22:1) felt this powerful, all-too-human emotion, when he was on the cross:

“…My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?”-Matthew 27:46.

If, at his most horrifying and painful moment, he thought God had forsaken him, then we can expect no better from ourselves. When in doubt, we go into fight or flight mode, and cut ourselves off from love. Even without choosing mindfully, we bear the responsibility of acting thoughtlessly. We wish for wolves to be lambs, and when they aren’t, we become wolves too.

Just because it’s natural doesn’t make it right. Just because it seems impossible, doesn’t mean we should refuse to try. Practice ahead of time, during the smaller tribulations. Don’t give up on love. Don’t panic. The groom needs time, because we need time to make ourselves ready. I know we tire, and fall asleep on watch (like Peter, James, and John in Gethsemane).

“Watch ye and pray, lest ye enter into temptation. The spirit truly is ready, but the flesh is weak.”-Mark 14:38.

Temptation should not be understood as we think of it today, as seducing for evil purposes. In the Bible, it translates as “a test.” The groom tests our reactions, to see if we are ready to be born again.

“…For the LORD your God is testing you, to know whether you love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul.”-Deuteronomy 13.3. (Taken from the English Standard Version.)

We can’t be physically, literally perfect. We make mistakes. Nor can we stay awake all the time. We must sleep. But we can be perfect in how we follow, and are tested by, Jesus’ lessons: not all at once, right off the bat, to be certain. But over time, with mindfulness, we can learn to see God everywhere, in everything.

We can stay awake in our hearts, minds, and souls.

We learn through temptation, by the tests God provides, like manna from heaven. If not for the apocalyptic results of our failed attempts, we would never learn how to be delivered from evil. These small temptations prepare us for the greater revelations, the more difficult tests.

Tribulation makes us ready.

“And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him.”-Matthew 25:6.

When he finished all the arrangements, part of the Jewish marriage custom was for the groom to send a messenger. That way, the bride-to-be and the virgins received some advance warning.

For us, now, this means we get some warning prior to a test. It may not be much, a few seconds to prime our awareness, and be ready.

We never know when the opportunity will come for us to forgive, or show mercy and compassion. It often goes by so quickly, that we miss it altogether.

By showing mercy, we feel better: We lighten our burden. So when life tests us through other people, we not only help them, but ourselves too.

“Be ye ready also: for the Son of man cometh at an hour when ye think not.”-Luke 12:40.

We act wisely by keeping our torches lit, with forgiveness always in our hearts, acting with mercy and compassion. Remain aware of beauty and love, the connection of all things, which is God.

When we treat others kindly, they love us: cause and effect; maybe not all at once, so be patient. We love our family and friends because they love us. So if we forgive them, because they forgive us, let us share this with everyone.

“Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven.”-Luke 6:37.

With mindfulness, we break the old chain, in which we react foolishly to indifference and hostility; and begin a new chain. When we behave wisely, we no longer have to worry about fixing what our thoughtlessness ruined. We don’t have to worry at all: just be aware.

Everyone you meet needs you. And you need everyone you meet. But if we aren’t prepared, if we refuse to see love and beauty as the natural state of things, the state unadulterated by our judgmental perception, then we miss the chance to heal and prepare ourselves.

“Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps. / And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us of your oil; for our lamps are gone out.”-Matthew 25:7, 8.

You ever turn the key, and your car won’t start? Or flip the switch, and the light bulb dies? Or open the refrigerator, only to find it empty?

We must perform maintenance. We must learn algebra and trigonometry before we can understand calculus; walk, before we run. Our small tests prepare us. If we don’t learn from them, we are foolish.

Forgiveness maintains the flame of love. If we think that we can skip it, that someone doesn’t deserve our mercy and compassion, then our flame dies. We lose, by not loving others.

“John [the Baptist] answered and said, A man can receive nothing, except it be given him from heaven.”-John 3:27.

God tests us, knowing we won’t pass, because we aren’t mindful of love. We fail, so that we see our foolishness, and learn wisdom. We suffer the apocalypse, so that our humiliation teaches us humility, so that we choose to be born again, participating in the marriage between love and life.

I can’t tell you why it has to be that way. I don’t know why I have to learn the hard way. I only see what happens. And I see, in the occurrence, both my folly, and the seeds of wisdom. The why doesn’t matter so much as the how.

Jesus is wisdom: the how, the way out of this mess that we foolishly created, believing we could live without loving one another.

“But the wise [virgins] answered, saying, Not so; lest there be not enough [oil] for us and you: but go ye rather to them that sell, and buy for yourselves.”-Matthew 25:9.

When we see the refrigerator empty, then we know that we have to go to the grocery store. If we don’t check our food and drinks before our guests arrive, and, only then do we see we’re out, that is foolishness.

We laugh at the thought of being so unprepared, just as the Jews must have, when they heard Jesus tell this parable. The disrespect for our guests, our irresponsible actions as host, is inconceivable.

We might try to borrow from our neighbors. But it’s not their fault that we were unprepared. The blame lies with us. The virgins had one task: to be ready. Even though they fell asleep, and the messenger woke them at midnight, the wise ones had learned from past mistakes and heartbreaks. They were ready.

By not being honest with ourselves about our foolishness, yet believing that we’ve covered every base, we skip our tests. Then, when it comes time for our final exam, when the guests are due, we face the worst tragedy of all:

We’re too late.

“And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came; and they that were ready went in with him to the marriage: and the door was shut.”-Matthew 25:10.

In Jewish custom, the Rabbi performed the marriage ceremony at the bride’s parents’ house. Once the groom arrived, they shut the door. If you weren’t ready, you missed the ceremony. Afterwards, with their torches lit, the virgins danced down the street, leading the marriage procession to the groom’s parents’ house.

Unlike us, the Jewish couple in ancient times didn’t go away on a honeymoon. Instead, at the groom’s parents’ house, they held a week-long celebration. Anyone could come. The doors remained open. People came and went, whether they were wise or foolish, and participated in the most glorious party, celebrating the marriage between love and life.

We are reborn, and begin the path to wisdom by being mindful of what we and others need: Do they need to be forgiven? Forgive them. Do they need compassion? Be compassionate unto them. By practicing in this way, we learn to respect and admire everyone and everything. We practice love until we feel it, without having to stop and think.

We understand that no one is always wise. So we forgive them when they’re foolish. We realize that no one is always a fool, so we admire them when they show wisdom. As we watch them, we’re aware of ourselves wavering: good, bad, wise, foolish.

Being born again means that we choose to become aware of this vacillation, in ourselves and others. And we commit ourselves to wisdom. Then, we become lambs.

Part of wisdom is knowing that, just as we needed time to prepare, other people haven’t learned from experience; they haven’t dedicated themselves to a better life. They are wolves.

Don’t expect a wolf to be a lamb. And, as a lamb, be wary of slipping back into the pack, howling with them as they hunt their neighbors. Just know, more than likely (actually, without a doubt), you will slip. So have patience with them, as you do with yourself; forgive them, and yourself. Have mercy, because the time will come when, during such a slip, you will need mercy.

The door shuts, regardless of whether you’re inside or out.

“Afterward came also the other [foolish] virgins, saying, Lord, Lord, open to us.”-Matthew 25:11.

Keep in mind, when Jesus told this parable, he was aware that his Jewish audience knew the custom; they knew of the week-long party, which anyone could attend. But they also knew, if you were outside the shut door, you would miss the ceremony.

There is always another test. But there’s also a potential for finality. In the flesh, I will never get to tell my Grandfather that he was right, that everything I searched for was in the Bible. That door closed. But I can pass it on. I cannot pay him back, but I can pay it forward. That’s what these essays are: What I would say to him, if I could, if I had been ready to enter the door, and attend the ceremony with him.

But I was a small fish (and still am). So the fishermen threw me back. I was a tare, so the farmers separated me from the wheat. Without that heartbreaking, and illuminating experience, I would not be on this journey today. And these essays would not exist.

“Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.”-Matthew 7:21.

God’s will for the world is whatever happens. The Lord’s will for us is that we love whatever happens. Even, or especially, if we don’t understand, or approve, or agree, we love because Jesus loves us, because God loves the world, all life, everything: good, evil, wise, foolish, the caterpillar under the log in the middle of the jungle, the murderer on death row: God has enough love for all of it, all of us. That’s why we’re here. This is wisdom.

But if we choose to not love, if we’re unable to understand the necessity for automatic forgiveness, then Jesus shuts the door. We cannot enter, what we’re unwilling to enter. We cannot pass the line we’ve drawn. So we judge and condemn ourselves.

“But he answered [the foolish virgins] and said, Verily I say unto you, I know you not.”-Matthew 25:12.

By failing to prepare, we disrespect the groom, his bride, the other guests, and ourselves. If you remember, from Revelation, the bride is everyone. Plus, the 10 virgins represent everyone. And Jesus is the groom.

So, by failing to prepare, we haven’t shown reverence to God, which is everyone and everything. Solomon taught that reverence to all is the beginning of wisdom. Without wisdom, we are foolish.

When Jesus says he doesn’t know us, it’s because we don’t know love. Wisdom is the understanding that comes from sharing love. Without that awareness, we cannot be born again, and enter the kingdom of heaven.

“Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.”-Revelation 3:20.

It might seem to us that Jesus is keeping us out, when, really, we deny him entrance. He didn’t leave us at the altar; we left him. God didn’t abandon the earth; we abandoned him. See the pattern?

Saying “Lord, Lord” means nothing, if we refuse to forgive, and show mercy and compassion.

“And why call ye me Lord, Lord, and do not the things which I say?”-Luke 6:46.

Like the Sower, when we love others, we plant a seed, which needs time to grow. During that time we learn patience: We wait on the Lord. And we learn wisdom: We watch God’s will work itself out, through the apocalypse, and into the marriage of love and life.

But if we don’t follow Jesus’ lessons, and wait until the last second, then we are foolish: We rush out and buy, not allowing time for the seeds to grow. We didn’t even plant any seeds, in the first place. We did nothing!

We can’t expect something to happen, if we refuse to do anything. Sure, the wolves might reject our love. So we don’t even try. But we don’t have to convert them, only comfort them. This requires no words, only our loving presence. In this way, we plant the seed, shine our light, allowing the love that’s larger than us, larger than life, to do the work needed to spread the Word.

“And I will betroth thee unto me for ever; yea, I will betroth thee unto me in righteousness, and in judgment, and in lovingkindness, and in mercies.”-Hosea 2:19.

Loving one another seems so very complicated, to the point of being impossible. And it is, until we spend time with it: forgiving each other and ourselves, showing mercy, being compassionate, not judging someone as ugly, but accepting their beauty as it is.

Think of loving kindness as insurance: Some day we will need it. If we can’t love each other, then we’re unable to love ourselves. We feel guilty, when abandoning others to their suffering. We might learn to live with that guilt, but when apocalyptic tribulation comes, we’ll having nothing to hold onto.

“Watch therefore, for ye know neither the day nor the hour wherein the Son of man cometh.”-Matthew 25:13.

This is what it boils down to: watching, always ready, because we’ve prepared ourselves. As we see how necessary it is to forgive ourselves, because we really had no idea what we were doing, we forgive others too.

Jesus lights our torch, invites us to dance and praise life. We accept his love, which seeds our hearts with humility and reverence. His only catch: that we share his seeds with others.

“…freely ye have received, freely give.”-Matthew 10:8.

We enlarge our hearts, leaving self behind, living for all, for God: aware at all times, mindful of suffering that we can comfort.

We give the seeds of mercy to those who are without, the light of compassion to those who live in darkness. We prepare for our foolishness, knowing it will come, that we’ll panic at the worst possible moment. And, in doing so, we stock our refrigerators for our guests, and respect our host by treating everyone the way we would have them treat us: the way God treats Jesus, who is inside all of us.

“At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.”-John 14:20.

Before our light goes out, before we despair, we forgive. Always forgive: This renews the torch, keeps us moving, breathing, playing, praying, dancing down the street, leading the marriage procession between love and life.

This is wisdom! It is the practiced instrument that becomes instinctive, second nature becoming first, every instance of love outnumbering the sands on all the shores of the world.

“And he brought [Abraham] forth abroad, and said, Look now toward heaven, and tell the stars, if thou be able to number them: and he said unto him, So shall thy seed be.”-Genesis 15:5.

We are and share Abraham’s seed, which is King David’s poetic soul, Solomon’s wisdom, the love, mercy, compassion, and patient forgiveness taught by their descendant, Jesus; handed down to us, so we can keep the fire burning, keep the immovable object moving: choosing mercy, refusing to let sin take root, reacting to the wolves (inside and out) with a strong mind, and a tender heart.

We know of the chain, cause and effect, and refuse to be its puppet. Jesus is my shepherd. I shall not want! The Lord breaks the chain of sin, shatters our bonds, leads us through the wilderness, all so that we can learn to love.

We waver, slip, run back to the pack, back to Egypt, wishing only for the safety of enslavement. But, in our thoughtless fear, if we practice enough ahead of time, our mindfulness returns. Our torches flair anew.

We remember Jesus: how his greatest triumph was dying on a cross, only to be born again. We realize the necessity of our suffering: so that we know how others feel, when they suffer.

Mercy ignites our torch; we shine with compassion, only to be extinguished by pride, reignited by forgiveness. Over and over! Unless we choose to learn from our mistakes, we are never free, always subject to the lash of regret.

“…If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed; / And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”-John 8:31, 32.

We cannot be free, until we know we’re slaves. We learn wisdom only after realizing how foolish we’ve been. The kingdom of heaven lives within, because the adversary lives within. Jesus gives us a torch, because darkness reigns otherwise.

“And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.”-Genesis 1:2.

Let there be light! Waver no more. Commit to the boundless wisdom you carry as a birthright, passed on to you through the covenant, the marriage between love and life. Don’t believe it, be it. The choice is yours: learn or don’t learn, wise or foolish, mindless wolves, or mindful lambs.

Just don’t take too long, because the door will shut: not forever, but for one person, one chance, which never comes again. We cannot step in the same river twice. Everything changes, grows, endures, and transforms. Cleanse yourself; be reborn, through love for one another: automatic forgiveness, instinctive mercy, and everlasting compassion. This is the way to the Promised Land.

“…As I was with Moses, so I will be with thee: I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. // …Be strong and of good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee withersoever thou goest.”-Joshua 1:5, 9.

We won’t journey forever. The day will come when we cross the Jordan, pushing back the waters, following the Ark of the Covenant, and our leader, Joshua, our example, Jesus, the one and only Jehovah, which is all of us, and everything else.

This is wisdom. This is Jesus.

Kingdom of Heaven: Talent

Within the framework of our own unique, personal covenant, God gives each of us talent, and work to use our gifts. Some people have really big jobs, lifelong commitments, that only end with their death: Gandhi and Martin Luther King Jr., for example.

Some have medium-sized jobs, like three years in the peace corps. But most of us don’t have the opportunity or ability to be the Pope. Instead we have the smallest, simplest tasks of all, like a smile to brighten someone’s day.

The people with big and medium-sized jobs know they have a responsibility. A teacher is a teacher every day. And, if we aren’t mindful, those of us with small jobs might decide to not even bother. Who cares if we don’t smile?

“And this is the Father’s will which hath sent me, that of all which he hath given me I should lose nothing….”-John 6:39.

In order for Jesus to not lose any one of us, he needs all of us to help. In every interaction, we reinforce hope or despair. Big, medium, or small: All jobs, like all people, are equal in God’s eyes. When we are born again, we recognize the possibilities and responsibilities of the so-called small jobs.

“For the kingdom of heaven is as a man travelling into a far country, who called his own servants, and delivered unto them his goods.”-Matthew 25:14.

Everyone serves God’s will, from Nebuchadnezzar (who enslaved the Jews) to Cyrus (who freed them). Simply stated, God’s will is whatever happens. Whatever we accomplish, whether we see it as good or bad, big or small, we serve each other.

“If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another’s feet.”-John 13:14.

We are all shepherds and sheep, the Lord’s servants and goods. Don’t misunderstand the labeling here. We tend to think of big as not being small; good is opposite evil. But God is Alpha and Omega. And so are we.

“But many that are first shall be last; and the last first.”-Mark 10:31.

We are all greater heroes, and cowards, than anyone can possibly imagine…let alone witness. The first equals the last. We are all God’s will, and we serve all that is, was, and will be.

We do this according to how we treat each other. Whether or not we use our talent in our work remains up to us. The Lord steps back (metaphorically) going “into a far country,” and allows us to handle each other in whatever ways we choose.

“And unto one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one; to every man according to his several ability; and straightway took his journey.”-Matthew 25:15.

God never gives us more than we can handle. He pushes us to our limits, to show us what we can do, even when we think we can’t, and to show us our hearts. It’s no easy thing, to finish Jesus’ mission, to continue in the spirit of Moses, when we have but one talent to bring hope to billions.

“…for the LORD your God proveth [tests] you, to know whether ye love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul.”-Deuteronomy 13:3.

God knows our hearts, and tests us so that we know our hearts.

We can’t directly save billions, with our one little gift. Instead, we work with one smile at a time, a supportive gesture, giving love to the loveless, and hope to the hopeless.

Have faith in this good seed.

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”-Proverbs 3:5.

We can’t even save one life. But that soul we touch, and aid in the reinforcing of hope, touches others; and those lives, others. Faith and despair grow by degrees, one at a time. Before we know it, the world is full of fear or faith. Everyone counts; everything we do adds up, always moving forward in whatever direction we nudge it.

All this begins when we are born again, realizing our small, but absolutely necessary place in the universe. Remember, God wants to give us the kingdom of heaven.

“Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.”-Luke 12:32.

He already has: Heaven is within us, each of us, all of us; it’s all around us. We just need new eyes, and new ears. The first step comes when we accept our talent and limitations.

“Then he that had received the five talents went and traded with the same, and made them other five talents.”-Matthew 25:16.

A talent was not a coin, but a weight. It’s value depended on whether it was made of copper, silver, or gold. Silver was the most commonly used, and was worth approximately $600,000 (in our modern economy). It weighed from 75-130 pounds (34-58.9 kilograms).

So the first servant (as we’d see it today) had (5 x 600,000) 3 million dollars to trade with. His lord trusted him with that much of his money. The servant proved worthy of his master’s faith, doubling what he entrusted to him.

“And likewise he that had received two, he also gained other two.”-Matthew 25:17.

Interestingly enough, our current usage of the word “talent” comes from this parable: meaning gift or skill. When we have money, it’s easy to make more. We still have to work for it, but we have something obvious and tangible to trade with others.

Whether it’s art, science, sports, or a heartfelt smile, if we exercise our talent, our ability grows. The more we use it, the more we can do with it. Practice makes perfect.

If we don’t use our talents, we lose them.

“…every tree which bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.”–Matthew 3:10.

We keep what we use. If we stop forgiving, soon we’ll forget how to do it. Same goes for everything. We teach ourselves, commit ourselves to whatever we do regularly. This is one of the best reasons for mindfulness: the absence of which is mindlessness.

These first two servants increased their talents, doubled them, by using them. The wording fascinates me too. They “received” these talents from their lord; they “traded” them with other people; and, by trading them, “gained” as much as they shared.

“…freely ye have received, freely give.”-Matthew 10:8.

We reason, incorrectly, that if we give something to someone, even our love, compassion, and forgiveness, then we lose what we give away. But God gave these to us. We received them freely. Instead of hoarding our gifts, if we pass them on to others, who need them, the Lord blesses us for blessing others. Then we gain double, and lose nothing.

“But he that had received one [talent] went and digged in the earth, and hid his lord’s money.”-Matthew 25:18.

I interpret this servant as the parable’s main character. He is the “everyman”: an ordinary individual with whom the reader identifies. There’s only one Moses or Jesus. Most of us are on the sidelines, watching the game. We can’t tackle, pass, or run; we’re too clumsy to dribble; we couldn’t hit water if we fell out of a boat: mostly because we’re lazy and scared; we feel weak and unimportant.

We have one talent (which is still worth over half-a-million dollars), but we feel impotent and jealous, when comparing ourselves to the servant who has 3 million.

“And Moses said unto God, Who am I, that I should go unto Pharaoh, and that I should bring forth the children of Israel out of Egypt?”-Exodus 3:11.

Not everyone can be the drum major, the General, the Messiah. Not everyone can fight in armies, or serve as apostles. Some stay behind, by necessity or choice or fear. Maybe we have tried to do good, lending a hand here and there, but got stomped on, heedless of Jesus’ warning:

“…behold, I send you forth as lambs among wolves.”-Luke 10:3.

With our love defeated, and fear triumphant, we became the lost sheep: the very ones Jesus came to save. That’s why this servant is our main character. That’s why Jesus loves us, and died for us.

“For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.”-John 3:16.

Don’t give up. It’s not too late. God needs and loves you, and wants you to be in the kingdom. You are a unique part of the universe. Only you can accomplish what your special talent inspires.

But the clock ticks ever onward.

“After a long time the lord of those servants cometh, and reckoned with them.”-Matthew 25:19.

Remember, before going “into a far country,” their lord “delivered unto them his goods.” He made no mention of what the servants should do with what he gave them. He left his wealth in their hands. But he gifted each “according to his several ability.”

So their lord gave them talent based on what they could do with it.

Jesus told us to watch and be ready; but how can we, when we don’t know what to prepare for, or how to make ourselves ready?

Ah, but see, if we prepare for what we know will come, then we’ve prepared, as much as possible, for what we don’t know will come. Right now, no matter what happens, we need to learn and work on love: compassion, mercy, forgiveness, tolerance, and thankfulness. These things help us right now, and prepare us for whatever comes.

“And so he that had received five talents came and brought other five talents, saying, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me five talents: behold, I have gained beside them five talents more.”-Matthew 25:20.

This servant received love, shared it with others, and earned love in return. If we feel and share love, then we have spread the Word, not by insistent conversion, but by our works, and our example.

“His lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.”-Matthew 25:21.

This servant was good and faithful because he accepted the unspoken responsibility that came with his lord’s gift, which he loaned or entrusted to the servant for safe keeping. Our talent no more belongs to us than the air, or the planets.

The servant was faithful because he knew the talent belonged to his lord, from whom he received it. And he was good because he received love, shared it, and returned it to the source. When we are good and faithful, we are ready to be born again.

“He also that had received two talents came and said, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me two talents: behold, I have gained two other talents beside them. / His lord said unto him, Well done, good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.”-Matthew 25:22, 23.

You know that wonderful feeling when you’ve done something good? That is the joy of the Lord. Imagine a whole life, or just weeks or years of having those feelings stored, ready for perusal and judgment of yourself. We don’t need a literal catastrophe, or the seven vials filled with the seven final plagues. All we need is one night, lying awake in bed, regretting what we’ve done.

“The merciful man doeth good to his own soul: but he that is cruel troubleth his own flesh.”-Proverbs 11:17.

Whatever sin means in the heavenly sense, the earthly definition reveals cruelty to others that ricochets back on the sinner. This wakes us in the middle of the night, judges and condemns us when our own personal Judgment Day, our guilt, turns the moon into blood.

So it goes, when we refuse to give to others what God gave to us.

“Then he which had received the one talent came and said, Lord, I knew thee that thou art an hard man, reaping where thou hast not sown, and gathering where thou hast not strawed.”-Matthew 25:24.

What can we say, on Judgment Day, when we failed and know it? The servant tried to deflect the blame onto his lord, insulting his employer. Had the servant claimed ignorance (at least), or repented (at most), he might have escaped his lord’s wrath.

The servants received no instructions on what to do with these talents. Since this last servant didn’t know how to use his gift, and if he was willing to try again, and do it right, maybe…just maybe….

“And the rest of the men which were not killed by these plagues yet repented not of the works of their hands….”-Revelation 9:20.

But he was too prideful, trying to stand tall in the midst of the storm. Why can’t we admit when we’re wrong? It’s natural to make mistakes, if we don’t know the rules. But we act like we’re always right.

It’s not my fault; it’s yours!

“And I was afraid, and went and hid thy talent in the earth: lo, there thou hast that is thine.”-Matthew 25:25.

Here we see the true root of pride: fear. The strong know how weak they are; the courageous know their fear. But we who fake strength and courage, so others (who also fake these noble traits) accept us as one of their own, do so out of fear.

We hide our glorious gift, bury it, as if it were dead and did not exist. People suffer when we don’t give them our love and compassion; we suffer by not sharing it. No one gains anything, when we bury our heads and hearts.

When we ignore a part of the body, the whole body suffers. We are all a part of the body of the universe.

God knows who we are, and whether or not we’re ready to be born again. Judgment Day does not condemn us, but rather tests us, so we learn what we lack.

“For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.”-John 3:17.

We cannot learn unless we’re ready. God tests us so that we know ourselves: how small and large, insignificant and important we are.

Jonah tried to run, because he wasn’t ready to use his talent to help others. But the storms came, and the sea raged; the sailors cast him off the ship, and he lived in the belly of the great fish, until he accepted who he was, and what he needed to do.

“The waters compassed me about, even to the soul: the depth closed me round about, the weeds were wrapped about my head. // When my soul fainted within me I remembered the Lord: and my prayer came in unto thee, into thine holy temple.”-Jonah 2:5, 7.

I think we must enjoy getting lost, so that we feel the rapture of being found. That’s why the Lord is my shepherd: I am the most wayward of sheep. Like our “everyman” servant, and Jonah, I run, sometimes stopping for a moment, to do something helpful and loving, then go right back to running. More great fish have swallowed and vomited me out, than I can count.

Sometimes, when I want to help others, the task and responsibility overwhelms me. The adversary inside my heart tells me, You’re weak and stupid, and can do no good, only harm; walk away. Sometimes I stand firm; other times, I agree with this judgment of my worth.

That’s when the Lord smites me, like a dog owner, who lightly smacks their beloved pet on the nose for making a mess on the carpet.

“His lord answered and said unto him, Thou wicked and slothful servant, thou knewest that I reap where I sowed not, and gather where I have not strawed.”-Matthew 25:26.

In this parable, Jesus not only defines what is good, and what is wicked, but shows us our relationship with God, and the Lord’s almighty will.

We are good when we receive God’s gift, and acknowledge it by sharing it with others, especially those who need love. We are wicked when we are too lazy, prideful, and scared: when we surrender to the adversary within, our own personal Satan.

“Remove far from me falsehood and lies; Give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with mine allotted bread.”-Proverbs 30:8.

(Slight departure from the norm: I took that quote from the Jewish Holy Scriptures, because I liked the wording.)

We each have our allotted bread, our specific talent, which is a part of our unique covenant. You have what God gave you, and I have something different. Separately, we’re incomplete, wicked; together, we complete God’s will, which is good.

The servant’s insult (“…I knew thee that thou art an hard man, reaping where thou hast not sown, and gathering where thou hast not strawed.”) was not a lie! His lord verified it. If God neither sows, nor straws, who does?

We do. God reaps and gathers what we sow and straw.

Jesus never left Palestine, but told his disciples that his gospel will be taught in the entire world. How? Through us and our works: He gave us the gospel, and left it up to us, as to what we’d do with it. God gave Moses the Law, and Moses passed it on to the Israelites, who gave it to us.

What will we do with this good news? What will you do with it?

“Thou oughtest therefore to have put my money [talent] to the exchangers, and then at my coming I should have received mine own with usury.”-Matthew 25:27.

In Jesus’ time, usury was lending money with high rates of interest, an illegal activity in Israel, but practiced, nevertheless. In this second verse, from the lord to his wicked and slothful servant, I’m reminded of the money changers in the temple.

Everyone had to exchange Roman currency, or any other foreign coins, for local coinage, in order to donate it to the temple. The money changers charged exorbitant fees, knowing the pilgrims couldn’t exchange their money anywhere else. Jesus called them “a den of thieves.”

But at least, with this illegal activity, the lazy servant could have traded his lord’s gift with others. Anything is preferable to nothing: love or hate, but don’t ignore; do or don’t do. Decide, commit to one way or the other.

“So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.”-Revelation 3:16.

We must accept who we are, to grow. Don’t second-guess; have faith in the good seed.

“…No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.”-Luke 9:62.

Even when someone isn’t ready to be born again, we still need to plant the seed. If we don’t sow, what does God have to reap? They might not accept your love and compassion, but reject you, perhaps vehemently so.

“They shall put you out of the synagogues: yea, the time cometh, that whosoever killeth you will think that he doeth God service.”-John 16:2.

A person doesn’t know love, unless we share it with them. If we share nothing, but ignore their pain (for fear of them causing us pain), then, in the absence of love, they know only hate…and so do we.

We don’t need to actively hate, just not actively love, for hate to result. Without the seed, the field lies barren. This is the difference between faith and fear, just and unjust, good and wicked.

“He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much: and he that is unjust in the least is unjust also in much.”-Luke 16:10.

The servants who used their talents for love were faithful with their work. God rewards a job well done with more glorious work to do.

If we are without faith, then we are fearful; and when we are fearful, we don’t love, only hate. And if we don’t share love, then we reject God’s gift: our talent. And we show ourselves that we aren’t ready for more difficult work, which comes with being born again.

“Take therefore the talent from him, and give it unto him which hath ten talents.”-Matthew 25:28.

If we don’t use our talents, we lose our abilities. No one exists as an island. Run and hide all you want, but someday, you will need someone’s love and compassion. We need each other from birth until death. Our singular talent is insufficient, without sharing it with others.

When we do share love, that is, our interpretation of it, from our personal covenant, and according to our “several ability”: We save everyone, especially ourselves. The only true selfishness is altruism.

Booker T. Washington wrote, “Those who are happiest are those who do the most for others.”

“For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath.”-Matthew 25:29.

As an isolated quote, I know that might sound unfair, especially if we’re the one from whom the Lord takes away something.

But look at it this way:

“For unto every one that hath [love and talent] shall be given [or feel greater love and talent], and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not [or doesn’t share love] shall be taken away even that which he hath.”

We know what we did or didn’t do; what we felt, and didn’t express; what God gave us, which we refused to share. So is God unfair, or are we?

“Yet ye say, The way of the Lord is not equal. Hear now, O house of Israel; Is not my way equal? are not your ways unequal?”-Ezekiel 18:25.

God can take away, as well as give. Our talent is our compassion, specifically, the ways in which we feel and share it. When I care for others, especially the loveless and hopeless, I accept myself; when I don’t care, I judge and reject myself.

We can blame this on God. Since the Lord is everything, we’d be somewhat correct in doing so. But God doesn’t straw or sow, we do. The fault is ours; the judgment, on us.

“And cast ye the unprofitable servant into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”-Matthew 25:30.

Like Simon-Peter, we are all “fishers of men.” Peter was that way because Jesus was that way, and still is.

“…Come ye after me, and I will make you to become fishers of men.”-Mark 1:17.

We throw back the little fish, so they’ll finish growing: That’s what Judgment Day is. Growth hurts. (Ask a teething child.) The revelation of what we haven’t done, in comparison to what we accomplished, can be very painful. It reveals to us what good we’ve done, for ourselves and others, and makes us condemn ourselves for what we haven’t done.

Without God, that is, without love, we weep in darkness. We gnash our teeth in the overwhelming anxiety of finishing Jesus’ work. We’re not alone though: Moses believed he couldn’t save Israel; Jonah believed he couldn’t save Nineveh; and Peter thought he was too sinful to spread the Word and love of God.

“When Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Jesus’ knees, saying, Depart from me; for I am a sinful man, O Lord.”-Luke 5:8.

When the Egyptians pursued the Israelites, trapping them against the Red Sea, God told Moses what Moses then shared with the weeping, former slaves, what still holds true for all of us today.

“The LORD shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.”-Exodus 14:14.

Reinforcing hope and faith seems impossible to us little people, who hover on the edge of outer darkness, on the sidelines. But nothing is impossible to God. When we spread the Word by our example, and love one another, we are not alone.

“…I am with you always, even unto the end of the world.”-Matthew 28:20.

Jesus is with us, so is Moses, Gandhi, Martin Luther King Jr., Booker T. Washington, and everyone everywhere who has ever loved the loveless, and given hope to the hopeless. In love, we are all one body, one universe.

And when we fail, and fall into darkness, do not surrender to your inner adversary. Someone will come along, and offer you support. God will not forsake you.

“…As I was with Moses, so I will be with thee: I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. / …be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee withersoever thou goest.”-Joshua 1:5, 9.

The “outer darkness” is not the end, only the beginning. Even if we surrender to this inner hell, when the great fish swallows us, like Jonah, all we have to do is repent: Accept God’s love; it’s everywhere.

See with new eyes, and hear with new ears. I’ve learned that what I believed were curses, in my life, were great blessings: miracles. God saves us from ourselves, and, through us, saves everyone. Jesus promised to not lose one of us. We will all pass over into the Promised Land, even if we wander through the wilderness for 40 years.

We will find the kingdom of heaven, because it’s inside of us, all around us, in each other, in everything. We can’t miss it!

“Be ye therefore ready also: for the Son of man cometh at an hour when ye think not.”-Luke 12:40.

Stay mindful. The opportunities to use our talent happen suddenly. Like making a left turn in heavy traffic, if we don’t use the precious few seconds, in which we notice someone in pain, then we lose the chance to share love, and stay stalled at the stoplight.

I can’t tell you what your talent is, or how to use it; your talent comes from your personal covenant with God, and all of life. Pray and meditate, commune and hold fellowship with all things. If you open your heart and mind, then God reveals your heart and mind, through the Word and love of Jesus.

The Lord bless and keep you.


God is everything, everyone, everywhere. So, whatever we do, we are a part of the kingdom of heaven, and not apart from it.

Nebuchadnezzar enslaved the Jews, taking them into captivity for 70 years. Still, he was God’s servant.

“And now have I given all these lands into the hand of Nebuchadnezzar the king of Babylon, my servant….”-Jeremiah 27:6.

King Cyrus, who freed the Jews from Babylonian captivity, was not just God’s servant, but his anointed king: the Greek word for which is “Christ.”

“Thus saith the LORD to his anointed, to Cyrus, whose right hand I have holden….”-Isaiah 45:1.

Jacob was God’s servant (Ez. 37:25), as well as Moses (Joshua 1:2), and David (2 Sam. 7:8). We all work for God. In the kingdom, no work or person ranks higher than any other. What we call good or evil, meaningful or meaningless, doesn’t matter, except to us and our need to judge.

God loves all of us, and needs everyone and everything.

Jesus emphasized this point with a parable about a vineyard. Unlike my other interpretations, this time I want to start with the moral, the conclusion, and then work our way from the beginning.

“So the last shall be first, and first last: for many be called, but few chosen.”-Matthew 20:16.

Jesus loves riddles. He wants us to pray and meditate on his wordplay. How can the last be first? What’s the difference between being called and chosen? Our answers determine our unique, personal covenant with God. There is no wrong answer. There are as many answers as there are people.

“Knowing this first, that no prophecy of the scripture is of any private interpretation.”-2 Peter 1:20.

My interpretation requires the insertion of a few key words: “So the last shall be [equal to the] first, and first [equal to the] last: for many be called [to follow God’s will], but few [have] chosen [to follow it mindfully].”

Do we know, and accept, that whether or not we choose to follow God’s will, we already do?

Now we can backtrack, develop our understanding of equality, and dismiss our judgmental ideas of separating Alpha and Omega.

“For the kingdom of heaven is like unto a man that is an householder, which went out early in the morning to hire labourers into his vineyard.”-Matthew 20:1.

The Bible writers left out one important detail, assuming, no doubt, that their readers recognized the time of year when extra workers were needed: the harvest. The rainy season followed the harvest. If extra laborers weren’t hired, the rain ruined the crop.

Last time, in the parable of the Wheat and Tares, we learned that the harvest symbolized Judgment Day, the humbling Day of the Lord, preceding rebirth, which is the kingdom of heaven.

“…in the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, Gather ye together first the tares…to burn them: but gather [last] the wheat into my barn.”-Matthew 13:30.

Jesus told us the reapers symbolized the angels; and the harvest, the end of the world. But we reasoned, in the previous essay, that we judge ourselves; we choose to enter heaven, or remain without love. So we are the angels, in that parable; and, in this one, we are the laborers.

“And when he had agreed with the labourers for a penny a day, he sent them into his vineyard.”-Matthew 20:2.

I love the King James version, because it usually gives literal translations of the original text. But sometimes it doesn’t. The standard payment for a day’s work, at this time, in Palestine, was a “denarius.” We lose nothing in the given translation, but it’s nice to know.

The laborers made a covenant with the householder. These workers hired themselves out on a daily basis. Without that payment, they and their families didn’t eat.

“And [the householder] went out about the third hour, and saw others standing idle in the marketplace. / And said unto them: Go ye also into the vineyard, and whatsoever is right I will give you. And they went their way.”-Matthew 20:3, 4.

The first hour of the day was 6 am. Instead of the time of day, let us think of this as the ages of humanity, or the morning, afternoon, and evening of our lives. In the beginning, God made a covenant with Noah; later, with Abraham (Noah’s descendant), then with Abraham’s descendants (Isaac and Jacob); still later, with Moses, and finally with the Israelites as a whole.

The renewing of the covenant ended or, rather, transformed, with Jesus: the personification of the Promised Land, whose teaching and example of love allows for our own personal covenants. While the Israelites made a national agreement, for a set wage, Jesus gives the rest of us “whatsoever is right.”

“And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works.”-Revelation 20:12.

Here in the vineyard, God pays us according to our works, what we do, think, and say. The last equals the first: God is Alpha and Omega. It doesn’t matter how long we labor, or how highly our task ranks.

Still, we tend to think that way, defining as important the number of hours on our time sheet, and whether we’re a supervisor, or newly hired.

“…Ye know that they which are accounted to rule over the Gentiles exercise lordship over them; and the great ones exercise authority upon them. / But so shall it not be among you…. / …whosoever of you will be the chiefest, shall be servant of all.”-Mark 10:42-44.

We must guard against the assumption that God thinks as we do. The closest we get to understanding the Lord is when we know that God loves us all.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD.”-Isaiah 55:8.

The householder doesn’t promise a set wage for those hired in the third hour, or the others who come later. Only the first know what they’ll receive for their work. If the householder pays them, who’re recently hired, less than a denarius, they won’t be able to feed their families. Yet, they work anyway, not knowing what they’ll be paid.

They live on faith, and survive on grace.

“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God.”-Ephesians 2:8.

We can’t understand, and shouldn’t try to interpret an isolated passage from the Bible, like this one. If we did, we’d assume that we can do whatever we want; and God will forgive us. Whether or not that’s what Paul meant, we see the idea in a new light, when we are born again.

No matter how long we work for God, beginning in childhood or old age, we still accomplish the Word, and shine light in darkness. Even if we comfort only one person, feed one animal, water one plant, by grace the Lord rewards us for doing the work given to us.

“Again [the householder] went out about the sixth and ninth hour, and did likewise.”-Matthew 20:5.

With the twelve-hour day half, and three quarters, done, the householder hires more workers. He calls as many as possible, to gather the harvest before the rain comes. He needs these last, just as much as the first.

This parable teaches the reality of equality. Since God is everything and everyone, no one is more (or less) a part of God than anyone else.

“…The harvest truly is great, but the labourers are few: pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that he would send forth labourers into his harvest.”-Luke 10:2.

The Bible reminds us of what we tend to forget. We overlook our natural tendencies for jealousy. We want to show strength, when we feel weak. We put ourselves above others, not by raising ourselves, but by lowering others.

We do this because others do it. We turn everything into a contest of wills and pride. But pride is a lie; humility is the truth.

As our example, Jesus showed us what it means to be humble.

“If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another’s feet.”-John 13:14.

The harvesters are all equal, because we all do God’s will: whether a little or a lot, for years or minutes, hundreds of times or once.

“And about the eleventh hour [the householder] went out, and found others standing idle, and said unto them, Why stand ye here all the day idle?”-Matthew 20:16.

Even in the 11th hour, God needs all of us to finish the work in time. Is dinner any less important because it’s not breakfast? Is that good friend we meet, when we’re elderly, any less loved because we weren’t childhood friends?

Everything has a time, place, and purpose; each of us accomplishes what no one else can do. This uniqueness equalizes everything. We fill in the gaps, and do the work, that no one else can.

“[The laborers] say unto him, Because no man hath hired us. He saith unto them, Go ye also into the vineyard; and whatsoever is right, that shall ye receive.”-Matthew 20:27.

When we’re mindful of God’s will, and our participation in the planting, growth, and harvest of the world, we’re always on the clock, always on the move, never slowing, or ceasing in our work, spreading the Word with our example: go, go, go!

But when we aren’t mindful, and, therefore, in denial of our mortality, and frail limitations, then we ignore the ticking of our time clock.

There is a day, hour, minute, and place with my name on it. When my shift is over, then I will work no more, forever.

We must love every moment, every one, and every thing: That’s what the Bible means when it tells us to love God. If we waste any time, standing idle, by not loving whatever work the Lord gives us, then we risk not eating at the end of the day. Without love’s nourishment, not only will we die, but we’ll take others with us.

“I have glorified thee on the earth: I have finished the work which thou gavest me to do.”-John 17:4.

At the end of our shift, our only “day” on this world, how soothing it would be, to know that we finished our task, our reason for being here in the first place. Maybe we never knew what work we needed to do, what, precisely, God had in mind for us. But God knows.

Even though I don’t know how I fit into the boss’ grand plan, when born again, I answer the call; I choose to love whatever and whomever finds their way into my life.

“By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.”-John 13:35.

And so, in the words of my favorite song: “My heart will lie peaceful and calm, when I’m laid to my rest.”

No matter what we do, or know, whether we stand idle, or keep moving, the end of the work day comes. The harvesters gather the last of the wheat and tares. The vines collapse beneath the torrential rain. The Lamb breaks the seventh seal, and opens the Book of Life.

“So when even was come, the lord of the vineyard saith unto his steward, Call the labourers, and give them their hire, beginning from the last unto the first.”-Matthew 20:8.

Pay day! Judgment day; the Day of the Lord; the end of days: Everything we did and worked for comes down to this. We can’t add a cubit to our stature, or an hour to our time card. What we did is what we have to show for ourselves. What we did is who we are.

What will you have to show, when you lie awake in bed, or when your loved one passes away? Will you be left with the eternal lake of fire of your regret, wailing and gnashing your teeth? Or will you know that you did your best? There can be no doubt, as that’s pointless. What you did, and who you are is, simply, what you did, and who you are.

“I am the true vine, and my Father is the husbandman.”-John 15:1.

If we love everyone, all during our work day, and repent when we stumble and stand idle, then we’ve harvested the love we learned from the vine, we accomplished the gardener’s job (which is God’s will), and there can be no doubt, fear, or regret.

The fun (and often confusing) part of Bible interpretation is that God is all characters, and so are we. God is the householder, lord of the vineyard, the steward, and laborers, the vineyard as a whole, and the singular vine.

God is everything, and more. Infinity is always larger than the biggest number.

“That they may know from the rising of the sun, and from the west, that there is none beside me. I am the LORD, and there is none else.”-Isaiah 45:6.

And since God made us, and directs our path, we are of God.

“Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.”-Jeremiah 1:5.

We judge and reward ourselves, based on what we choose to do. We harvest what we plant, reap what we sow; and if we sow the wind, we reap the whirlwind.

No matter how much we lie to ourselves, we cannot escape the truth in our hearts. We know what’s written in the book of our lives: We write it, seal it, and open it. We are Judgment Day! Likewise, so is God.

God is the truth in our hearts, the works that we do, the lake of fire, and eternal peace of mind.

“I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.”-Isaiah 45:7.

We are God’s prophets, the Word, the light of Jesus that shows the way; and we create evil. We are God’s work.

So when we, the stewards, and Jesus (who is also the steward), call ourselves, as he calls us, we reward ourselves, as God pays us, “whatsoever is right.”

“Jesus answered them, Is it not written in your law, I said, Ye are gods?”-John 10:34.

We are gods, when we do God’s work. Or, perhaps, it is more accurate to say it this way: We are God’s. We are the least important, because ours is one small life among countless billions, and the most important, because we are unique: You are the only you there ever was, or will be.

“And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me, to give every man according as his work shall be. / I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last.”-Revelation 22:12, 13.

So the lord of the vineyard tells his steward to give “whatsoever is right” to the workers; the steward pays the last, first; and the first, last.

“And when they came that were hired about the eleventh hour, they received every man a penny [a denarius]. / But when the first came, they supposed that they should have received more, and they likewise received every man a penny.”-Matthew 20:9, 10.

How hard it is for us to be satisfied. Even if we’re rich, and have everything we want, it’s easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for us to be born again, and enter the kingdom of truth, the love of God.

“Hell and destruction are never full; so the eyes of man are never satisfied.”-Proverbs 27:20.

Our jealous eye sees that others have more, or worse yet, others have what we have, when they didn’t work as much as we did.

Remember the Prodigal Son’s older brother?

“And he answering said to his father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, neither transgressed I at any time thy commandment: and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends: / But as soon as this thy son was come, which hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou hast killed for him the fatted calf.”-Luke 15:29, 30.

The older brother was, of course, the first born. He always obeyed his father, and lived a good life because of this.

God made a covenant with the Israelites. The Lord called them his first-born son.

“…Thus saith the LORD, Israel is my son, even my firstborn.”-Exodus 4:22.

To them and their beliefs, everyone else was a Gentile, who would all be destroyed in the Day of the Lord. The Israelites came first; likewise, the older brother, and the laborers who worked all day.

We all see ourselves as privileged, above the common rabble, while we also complain that we don’t get enough, and deserve more. How can we be better than everyone, but evidently lower too, since they have the same, or more, as we do?

Am I a prince, or am I a pauper?

“And when they had received it, they murmured against the goodman of the house. / Saying, These last have wrought but one hour, and thou hast made them equal unto us, which have borne the burden and heat of the day.”-Matthew 20:11, 12.

For the rest of my life, when I see the word murmur, I will think of the Israelites and Moses. Right after they complained to him that there was no food, in the wilderness, and God gave them manna, then they murmured about not having any water.

“…and the people murmured against Moses, and said, Wherefore is this that thou hast brought us up out of Egypt, to kill us and our children and our cattle with thirst? / And Moses cried unto the LORD, saying, What shall I do unto this people? they be almost ready to stone me.”-Exodus 17:3, 4.

Gratitude, friends and neighbors: the older brother lacked it; the first-born Israelites refused to learn it; and the first-hired laborers didn’t express it either. The father gave the older brother a good life, in exchange for his loyalty; God saved the Israelites from slavery; and the lord of the vineyard paid his workers what he had promised, enabling them to feed themselves and their families.

“…to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little.”-Luke 7:47.

It is God’s will that I be a pauper, so that I know love when repentance makes me a prince. I must go through the wilderness, so that I love the Promised Land. God tests our hearts with affliction, and forgives our weakness, because, no matter how many fiery flying serpents devour us (poor Israelites, see Numbers 21:6), or how many blessings we refuse and crucify, out of pride and ignorance, we endure through forgiveness and love.

“Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life.”-Revelation 2:10.

Therefore, with all due respect to Mark Twain, I am the Prince and the Pauper: just not all at once. Taken in its entirety, as seen in the book of my life, I have been first and last, the beginning and the end. Wretched as I am, when I suffer tribulation, and endure by loving God’s work, the King of kings crowns me with amazing grace.

“But [the householder] answered one of them, and said, Friend, I do thee no wrong: didst not thou agree with me for a penny?”-Matthew 20:13.

The standard Christian covenant calls us to action, and, in return, promises to give us our daily bread, forgives us when we forgive others, and strengthens our endurance. We agree to this arrangement, because it saves us from the Egyptian whip, and starvation in the wilderness. This love, which results from our love, feeds us, our families, and everyone else.

Where there is nothing, and we are without hope, God fills our granaries, so that we survive the famine. Though we have no water, now our cup runneth over.

“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”-Matthew 6:33.

We are born again when we put God first; and since God is everyone and everything, the blessings of the kingdom of heaven equalizes everyone.

We have no true ranks of importance, only equality. We achieve this equal footing by humbling ourselves, and showing gratitude, when, in the wilderness, God’s love nourishes us.

“Take that thine is, and go thy way: I will give unto this last, even as unto thee. / Is it not lawful for me to do what I will with mine own? Is thine eye evil, because I am good?”-Matthew 20:14, 15.

God calls all of us to action. We all live and work in the vineyard. But, unless we choose God, unless we live with love and gratitude as our guides, then we see only through the evil veil in our hearts. We project onto others, what we know and feel exists within us.

This happens even without our being aware of it. We sin because we aren’t mindful.

“When I looked for good, then evil came unto me: and when I waited for light, there came darkness.”-Job 30:26.

We judge others by what we see, and refuse to acknowledge, in ourselves. If we are light, then we see light; if we are darkness, then we see darkness.

Those first-hired laborers saw the householder as dealing unjustly with them, because they were greedy, jealous, judgmental, and unjust. If we aren’t mindful, then we fall back into our mindless ways. Being born again gives us new eyes, if we choose to accept gratefully “whatsoever is right.”

“The light of the body is the eye…. / But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness….”-Matthew 6:22, 23.

If we lie to ourselves, by insisting that we are better or worse than everyone else, or that we don’t have to be grateful, because we pulled ourselves up by our bootstraps, then everything we see is a lie. Truth begets truth, and lies beget lies.

Our hearts know the truth. So when we lie, we conquer and confuse ourselves.

“Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!”-Isaiah 5:20.

We turn everything around, and blind ourselves, losing our way to the very happiness that we lied for in the first place. All that ends on Judgment Day, when the Lamb within opens the book of our lives, and sees truthfully what we sealed.

At the end of the harvest, when the rains come, we rest within the ark, or gnash our teeth, as our flood of lies and confusion covers our heads. But, in the end, there is no difference between these two: They are both God’s will, and God’s love.

We humble ourselves, when we love everyone, making their needs equal to ours, loving them as we would have them love us. Humility is the truth. So when we bring judgment upon ourselves, in a moment of honesty, we open our hearts.

If we refuse to bow our knees, God drives us to our knees. If we denounce humility, our own pride drowns us, and humbles us.

“For the day of the LORD is near….as thou hast done, it shall be done unto thee: thy reward shall return upon thine own head.”-Obadiah 1:15.

At the end of that day, we begin to realize the truth, and love fills our eyes with light, so that we finally see the way: The last equals the first, and the first equals the last. We answer the call when we choose to, when Alpha and Omega knows we’re ready to enter the Promised Land, and be born again.

And on that day, we cry out the single Greek word, as Jesus did on the cross, with a mighty shout: Tetelestai! (te-TEL-es-ti.)

It is finished!

Our works (what we think, do, and say) nourish us or poison us. And since we share our works, our daily bread, we nourish or poison others. We are born again, and enter the kingdom of heaven, when we accept responsibility for this disparity, and acknowledge the cause of it: doubt.

If we doubt for reasons of growth, love, compassion, and positive change, then it nourishes us. If we doubt because of cynicism, fear, or hatred (which is the absence of love), then it poisons us.

Doubt influences us to spring forward, or fall back. As always, we must be mindful, not only of what we’re doing, but our reasons for doing it.

“…The kingdom of heaven is likened unto a man which sowed good seed in his field.”-Matthew 13:24.

Jesus loved parables about farming and fishing, because the people listening to him farmed and fished. We learn best by imagining his lessons in terms of how we live.

For me, the universal poison (the devil) is the dark side of doubt.

This is one of those few parables that Jesus interpreted for us. Unlike last time, let us look at both parable and interpretation together.

“…He that soweth the good seed is the Son of man.”-Matthew 13:37.

Jesus most always referred to himself in the 3rd person, as the “Son of man.” There are many reasons for this, and we will get to it in a later essay. For now, note that he didn’t say I, and that Son of man refers to the Hebrew word Messiah (which means “anointed one”), the Greek word for which is Christ.

Since we aren’t ready to declare what Jesus meant by Son of man, we must limit what we glean from these opening lines.

So far we have two objects: The Son of man and the good seed.

“But while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat, and went his way.”-Matthew 13:25.

Tares are a kind of weed, or ryegrass, that looks like wheat in its early stages. The farmer can’t distinguish them, until the tares grow ears. Their seeds are poisonous. (Another interesting note, the Romans outlawed sowing tares in an enemy’s field.)

“The field is the world; the good seed are the children of the kingdom; but the tares are the children of the wicked one.”-Matthew 13:38.

The Son of man plants the seeds that are the children of the kingdom of heaven, people who have been born again, through love for all.

“As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love.”-John 15:9.

As God loves Jesus, just so does Jesus love us, and, by his example, in that same way, we should love each other: This is God’s will.

The “wicked one” plants poisonous seeds.

In the Beatitudes, Jesus specifies a unique quality to God’s children.

“Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.”-Matthew 5:9.

Jesus came so that we might have peace, not only with each other, but within ourselves. The people whose works bring this peace are the good seed, the children of the kingdom.

He also spoke specifically about the children of the wicked one, who do not bring peace.

“…It is impossible but that offences will come: but woe unto him, through whom they come!”-Luke 17:1

Life without tribulation is impossible because of the children of the wicked one.

A word of caution: Do not assume that we are talking about different people. As discussed last time, redemption proves that no one person is evil all the time, but always has capacity for good; and sin proves that no one is good all the time, either.

“For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed evil….”-Mark 7:21.

Evil is not out there, independent of us; it comes from us: We make evil by doubting love. Yet, we are the children of God, not because of what’s out there, but because of our peacemaking, as we spread the love that God feels for Jesus, and Jesus expresses to us.

“.…for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.”-Luke 17:21.

At the crossroads of every decision, we choose to doubt, or to have faith in love.

“But when the blade was sprung up, and brought forth fruit, then appeared the tares also.”-Matthew 13:26.

This is the fruit, the results, of our selfish, antagonistic works. Through everything that we think, do, and say, we grow the wheat that nourishes us and others, or the tares that poison everyone’s faith in love.

Remember, the tares look just like the wheat, until they bear fruit. Consciously, we may not know, or acknowledge, that we thought or acted in a nourishing or poisonous way.

Whatever else it is, sin is psychological.

“The merciful man doeth good to his own soul: but he that is cruel troubleth his own flesh.”-Proverbs 11:17.

We act tough for others, even convincing ourselves that we don’t care.

“.…but God knoweth your hearts….”-Luke 16:15.

And when the tares spring up, when we poison our own flesh, even though we hide our hearts from everyone, including ourselves, God knows.

“.…for they say, The LORD seeth us not; the LORD hath forsaken the earth.”-Ezekiel 8:12.

People have been saying that since the Jews’ Babylonian captivity, and we believe it today, even if only occasionally. But God is everywhere, ubiquitous in space and time-which means God is an immortal spirit.

“…and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth.”-John 4:24.

The truth is true, whether we admit it or not, believe it or not, deny it or not. Deep down, we know that God sees us, because we see ourselves; we know what we think, do, and say. We know the difference between nourishment and poison.

When we accept that we can’t lie to ourselves, without suffering mysterious ailments, turns of fortune, brought about by our own duplicity, and the poisoning of our own minds, then we are born again.

“So the servants of the householder came and said unto him, Sir, didst not thou sow good seed in thy field? from whence then hath it tares? / He said unto them, An enemy hath done this….”–Matthew 13:27, 28.

At last we get to the fourth player in this drama.

“The enemy that sowed them is the devil….”-Matthew 13:39.

We’ve talked about the devil some, in past essays. “Satan” is the Greek and Hebrew word for “adversary” or “enemy.” The same word means the same thing in the two languages in which the Bible was originally written.

Let that sink in.

I don’t pretend to know the immortal goings-on of Heaven and Hell. I don’t even know the whole truth about our limited, mortal existence. Assume humility, not pride, and the truth (or what we can know of it) reveals itself.

Like the Son of man, whose meaning we can’t entirely understand, Satan defies absolute qualification; and, as with the good seed, which, by definition, none of us can attain completely, the Tares are not individual people, but parts of us: Tares symbolize our weaknesses; the wheat, our strengths.

So whatever else the Son of man and Satan might be, Son of God and Fallen Angel, respectively, they stand for our faith in love and our doubting of love.

“Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.”-John 8:44.

We lie when we doubt truth. Jesus is the truth: love, mercy, compassion, forgiveness, humility. We murder all of these within ourselves and others, when we don’t live truthfully. Sin denies love; God is love; and God is everything: So when we don’t love, which is the unification of all that Jesus stands for, we sin.

“…Full well ye reject the commandment of God, that ye may keep your own tradition.”-Mark 7:9.

We want to do things our way. My pride assures me that I am in control of my life. What matters is that I increase my power, that I celebrate what I desire, and others can look out for themselves. The fact that love is a greater way, a life larger than my own, makes it my enemy, my adversary, my satan.

This is pride, and pride is a lie.

Lies and truth fight an eternal war within us.

“And there was war in heaven: Michael and his angels fought against the dragon; and the dragon fought and his angels.”-Revelation 12:7.

Heaven is within us, Jesus said. And evil infects us not from without, but from within. Lying, being cruel to others, so that we get what we want, and, by necessity, deny others what they want, seems to be the easiest way. And it would be, except the Tares poison us, as we grow them.

“There is no peace, saith the Lord, unto the wicked.”-Isaiah 48:22.

We ruin the very happiness we seek, falling into the trap we set for others, when we doubt that love saves us all. We think to look after our own interests, but poison our own lives. The only way to look our for ourselves is to love others.

This altruism is the only way to accomplish what we set out to do, by being selfish.

“.…The servants said unto him, Wilt thou then that we go and gather them up? / But he said, Nay; lest while ye gather up the tares, ye root up also the wheat with them.”–Matthew 13:28, 29.

Since we don’t know enough to accurately judge anyone or anything, we are unable to separate good from evil. If we try, we might remove what (in time) turns out to be good. This is the reason for humility, and allowing God’s will to be done.

My favorite example of this truth comes from the story of Joseph, owner of the coat of many colors, and one of the 12 patriarchs that became the 12 tribes of Israel.

Jealous of him, because Jacob gave Joseph the coat, and angry with him for his dream interpretations, that foretold their obedience and subordination to this younger brother, the other brothers stole his coat, ripped it up, threw Joseph into a pit, and conspired to sell him into slavery.

But when Joseph was a slave in Egypt, he was the only one who could interpret Pharaoh’s dream, without being told the details of the dream. And his interpretation warned that famine was coming, that Egypt should prepare by storing food. Pharaoh put Joseph in charge of this distribution, making the Hebrew slave his second in command.

So, when the famine hit Jacob, and Joseph’s brothers, and they heard that Pharaoh had food, they went to Egypt and found Joseph. Now, he could have thrown his hateful brothers into prison, or had them killed, or denied them food. What they did to him was exceedingly wicked.

Here is what Joseph said to them:

“But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive.”-Genesis 50:20.

He welcomed them (after messing with their heads a little), gave them food, and reunited with Jacob. He did this because, unlike his brothers, he had the faith to not judge what is good, and what is evil. God meant for their wicked acts to save many people.

“…did not he that made that which is without make that which is within also?”-Luke 11:40.

We just don’t know what will come. Being totally ignorant, stumbling in the darkness of lust and selfish desires, by trying to put right what we think is wrong, we might make wrong what would have later turned out to be right.

Faith in love means having the patience to let God’s will be done. This faith, as we’ve said, is the Son of man, and the good seeds result from his (and our) love. Doubt is “the wicked one,” and the tares result from his lies, which are needed to support our doubt.

“Let both grow together until the harvest: and in the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, Gather ye together first the tares, and bind them together in bundles to burn them: but gather the wheat into my barn.”-Matthew 13:30.

Good and evil exist together. God made everything and exists as everything. Good comes from evil; and evil, from good. I think Solomon said it best:

“The Lord hath made all things for himself: yea, even the wicked for the day of evil.”-Proverbs 16:4.

Jesus gave us two new terms here: harvest and reapers.

We are not the reapers, who separate good from evil. Since both of these exist within us, and God made both, and God is both, then we cannot divide what God put together, what is within us: our souls, our kingdom. We cannot divide God.

“And if a kingdom be divided against itself, that kingdom cannot stand.”-Mark 3:34.

If we rid ourselves of all doubt, then we lose the good, as well as the bad. There is worthwhile doubt, and worthless doubt: fruitful and fruitless, nourishment and poison.

While we wait for God’s will to be done, we must also act as angels: the Greek word for “messenger.” As Jesus loves us, we must love others. To do nothing means to love no one, which is the same as hate.

The 12 apostles didn’t just listen to Jesus, nodding their heads in listless acquiescence. Jesus sent them out to preach, and act, and share love.

“Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves.”-Matthew 10:16.

This is really hard and frightening. We wait for God’s will, and yet we act according to Jesus’ teachings; we tell no one, and yet we spread the word. We cannot do this, unless we are mindful of God, thinking always of what we learned from Jesus: faith, patience, love, forgiveness, mercy, compassion.

To paraphrase Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., the hardest part of obeying God is that we must disobey ourselves. So we make our will to become God’s will. We accomplish this by following what we learn from Jesus. In that way, the impossible becomes possible, the finite becomes infinite, and the one becomes all.

“Then shall ye return, and discern between the righteous and the wicked, between him that serveth God and him that serveth him not.”-Malachi 3:18.

In his messianic prophecy, Malachi points us to beginning of the conclusion. We serve God when we have faith in love, which is the good seed, which Jesus plants, which grows into the wheat that we use to bake our bread, which we feed to others.

We do not serve God when we doubt love, which is the poisonous seed, which our adversarial nature plants, which grows into the tares that ruin our bread, which we feed to others, and, thereby, ruin them.

Now, let us look at the two new terms.

“…the harvest is the end of the world; and the angels are the reapers.”-Matthew 13:39.

So, the good and bad seed grow together, until the end of the world, at which time the angels separate them. The “end of the world” is also our third unknowable term.

“But of that day and that hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels which are in heaven, neither the Son, but the Father.”-Mark 13:32.

By his own admission, even Jesus doesn’t know the entirety of what the Jews called “the day of the Lord.”

“The great day of the LORD is near, it is near, and hasteth greatly, even the voice of the day of the LORD: the mighty man shall cry there bitterly.”-Zephaniah 1:14.

Peter addressed one of the reasons for why these three terms (Son of man, Satan, and the end of the world) are unknowable.

“Knowing this first, that no prophecy of the scripture is of any private interpretation.”-2 Peter 1:20.

So don’t believe anyone who tells you that they know what prophecy means. Only God knows.

The Lakota Indians called God (what is sacred, divine, the Great Spirit) “Wakan Tanka.” This translates into English as “the Great Mystery.” Some things are unknowable to us. We study and interpret them, not to know, but to learn humility while pondering the infinite.

This is why I tend to interpret by transposing these immortal goings-on into understandable, mortal ideas. Much is lost by doing it that way. But, by speaking in earthly terms, we at least have a chance of being right; we cover our bases.

“If I have told you earthly things, and ye believe not, how shall ye believe, if I tell you of heavenly things?”-John 3:12.

That said, I see “the end of the world” as necessarily preceding the newly recreated world, what the Revelation called “New Jerusalem.” The Old passes away, to make room for the New; one decreases, so that the other increases. This creation uses the remains, the energy of what was destroyed. And so, God destroys the Old to make the New.

This describes being born again. The end of the world is the end of our old life. New Jerusalem is our new life. Things get worse and worse, the plagues mount, the moon turns to blood, the trumpets sound. To humble ourselves, to bend our knees to God, we must be driven to our knees.

Therefore, Judgment Day, the day of the Lord, is when we fail our most important test one too many times. Everything falls apart; the center cannot hold. So we learn that we are not islands unto ourselves, but a part of God, an ingredient of the universe: necessary, but no smaller or larger than anything else.

“At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.”-John 14:20.

We sift through the good and bad, when God tests us, when we admit failure, and learn the truth, by which we are reborn.

Are we then the angels?

Not at first. And not entirely, even when we are at our best. But, yes, in this parable, we sit in judgment on ourselves: We are angels, and we are not angels. Recall this curious statement, one of many for which the Jews wanted to stone Jesus.

“I and my Father are one.”-John 10:30.

To explain this to his would-be murderers, who took him literally, and therefore charged him with blasphemy, Jesus referred to one of the Psalms of David.

“I have said, Ye are gods; and all of you are children of the most High.”-Psalm 82:6.

What he tried to tell them was that they were gods, angels (God’s messengers) when they served God. When we remove the plank from our eye, we can see clearly to remove the mote from our brother’s eye. The humility and honesty required to remove our plank, and their mote, comes from the truth of love.

“As therefore the tares are gathered and burned in the fire; so shall it be in the end of the world. / The Son of man shall send forth his angels, and they shall gather out of his kingdom all things that offend, and them which do iniquity.”-Matthew 13:40, 41.

When we doubt love, we do iniquity (which is wicked, immoral behavior). This sparks the chain reaction that leads to the end of the world.

“And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.”-Matthew 24:12.

When we share love, and don’t receive love in return, our hearts grow cold; we stop sharing love, out of self-preservation. But if we don’t share love, then we hate, and poison ourselves, which poisons others, making their hearts grow cold. And so on.

Remember, when we share love, we are sheep among wolves: harmless, in that we don’t return their hate, and wise, in that we know they will hate us.

“If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.”-John 15:18.

Therefore, we must mindfully start God’s chain reaction, by loving those who hate us, by blessing those who curse us, and praying for those who use and persecute us. This is God’s will, and, by following it, we are God’s children, angels of love.

To be able to do this impossible thing, we must be humbled to the point of self-obliteration, and allow our will to become God’s will, our life to become God’s life, our hate to become the love that God has for Jesus, and Jesus has for us.

When this happens, we throw our Tares into the furnace. When we encounter iniquity, which we know will be there, so it’s not a surprise, our hearts radiate warmth, growing warmer all the time. It is with this flame that we burn the Tares.

“And [the angels] shall cast [iniquity] into a furnace of fire: there shall be wailing and gnashing of teeth.”-Matthew 13:42.

As stated in previous essays, the wailing and gnashing of teeth, whatever else it may be, refers to the fear and anxiety we feel on Judgment Day. It is no small thing to lose our lives, even if it means saving our lives.

We leap with faith, and fall in doubt.

With faith, Peter walked on water. When he doubted, he sank. But, even then, he called to Jesus, he returned to faith, and, as Jesus said to everyone he miraculously healed:

“.…thy faith hath saved thee.”–Luke 18:42.

When Jesus knew he had to sacrifice his life on the cross, even though it meant saving all of us, he prayed in Gethsemane:

“…My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death…./ …O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.”-Matthew 26:38, 39.

We want to save our lives, but we lose our lives, if we seek to save ourselves. This goes against our every instinct. We doubt even unto death. But then, we return to faith, and if we truly want to save our lives, we surrender to God’s will.

We must know everything to save our lives, which is impossible. Only everything knows everything. So we turn our will over to God, and act in the name of love, and then…a miracle!

“Then shall the righteous shine forth as the sun in the kingdom of their Father. Who hath ears to hear, let him hear.”-Matthew 13:43.

This is what becomes of the conflict between the wheat and tares. The seemingly eternal war is really a passing thing, a vapor, a shadow. If we grasp the vapor, we come up empty handed. All we really have to hold onto is each other.

This is the truth. Everything else we tell ourselves is a lie. So if we hate, dismiss, ignore, poison our only hope, our single refuge, then we doubt the Son of man, grow from the wicked one’s ruinous seed, and destroy not only ourselves, but each other: a chain reaction that brings about the end of the world.

But we must do this. We will end the world. New stars are created with the remains of dead stars. The only remaining question is this: Will we learn before it’s too late?

“He hath showed thee, O man, what is good; and what doth the Lord require of thee, but to do justly, and love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God?”-Micah 6:8.

While many of us are stubborn and slow, some do learn. They do justly, show mercy, walk humbly regardless of how others treat them. They are the wise, harmless sheep, the good seed, God’s children, peacemakers among wolves: With love, they nourish everyone.

In the uproar and hopelessness of the great and terrible day of the Lord, they comfort the lost sheep, teach love by example, and not by ultimatum. They show us how “the end” evanesces like a shadow, that hate is but a prelude to love. When the sun goes dark, and the stars fall, and the moon turns to blood, they stand firmly in love.

We search for the ingredients of our leaven, to bake our bread, which we feed to others; and they feed this same back to us. Thus we plant the mustard seed that becomes our lives.

But what do we search for? Better yet, what do we find when we search? And how do we use what we find?

Every step of our journey determines what we’ll discover. God tests us with every choice we make.

Jesus illustrated this point with a parable about fishing.

“Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a net, that was cast into the sea, and gathered of every kind.”-Matthew 13:47.

As Jesus told Nicodemus, we enter the kingdom of heaven by being born again. So we choose to undertake our second infancy; we embark on this voluntary search, because we made a mess of our lives: We don’t forgive, so we’re angry all the time, or regretful, holding a grudge that will never be satisfied.

“Hell and destruction are never full; so the eyes of man are never satisfied.”-Proverbs 27:20.

And we lack patience, so every step leads us to frustration.

Where did we go wrong? We fix things this second time around by being mindful, living in the present. We messed up not when we were babies: we were too young to know right from wrong. Nor did we ruin things at the end of the journey: by then we’d become Sodom.

No, we made mistakes along the way, during our search.

The first verse of this parable sets the scene, reducing our years to one sentence. Here, before we choose, before we judge, we learn faith.

We gather of every kind. We can’t help what goes into our net, what we experience. Everything we sense and imagine resides forevermore in our consciousness, our soul.

So what do we find? Everything: God.

“Which, when it was full, they drew to shore, and sat down, and gathered the good into vessels, but cast the bad away.”-Matthew 13:48.

Jesus invites us to consider this lesson now, because, in the heat of the moment, we don’t have time to think. Here, we teeter on the edge of judgment, summoning our strength for a leap of faith. Before we leap or fall, we must remember the basic truths of Christianity, which, if we understand and follow, causes us to be born again.

All that we interpret in the Bible and life, we must first run it through these three axioms: (1) God is everything, and God is love, (2) so love one another, and (3) by love Jesus means, at the bare minimum:

“Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven.”-Luke 6:37.

This goes back to the Bible’s first lesson, what we call “the original sin.” Adam and Eve ate the fruit that gave them knowledge of good and evil. Judgment began there. This is the knowledge of opposites, our basis for judging others as good or evil, pretty or ugly, brave or cowardly.

If we judge, then we fall. In order to properly judge someone, we must know everything about them: past, present, future, not to mention their thoughts, dreams, fears, aspirations, the causes by which they act, and all the resultant effects. No one of us can know these things.

Throughout his book, Job claims to know all there is about God, and the Lord’s will. Then, in four marvelous chapters (38-41), God calls him out.

“Where wast thou when I laid the foundations of the earth? Declare, if thou hast understanding. // Who hath divided a water-course for the overflowing of waters, or a way for the lightning of thunder; / To cause it to rain on the earth, where no man is; on the wilderness, wherein there is no man.”–Job 38:4, 25, 26.

When faced with the truth of his small place in the universe, and the overwhelming majesty of all that exists besides him….

“Then Job answered the Lord, and said, / I know that thou canst do every thing, and that no thought can be withholden from thee. // I have heard of thee by the hearing of the ear: but now mine eye seeth thee. / Wherefore I abhor myself, and repent in dust and ashes.”-Job 42:1, 2, 5, 6.

We sin by judging, not just because we condemn incorrectly, but because we exalt ourselves to God’s position, by believing we know what only the Lord can know.

“Thou shalt have no other gods before me.”-Exodus 20:3.

This includes ourselves. If we put ourselves above God, we fall. We are a part of the universe, not the entire thing.

Job teaches not only patience, but repentance. If we search for patience, we find faith; if we search for repentance, we find forgiveness.

So, in this parable, when we separate the good fish from the bad, we doom our entire journey. We cannot distinguish between good and bad, and, if we do, we love one and hate the other. We can’t know everything; only everything knows everything.

The best person can do the worst things, and the worst can do the best; a coward rises to heroism, and a hero crumbles into cowardice; the ugly duckling becomes beautiful, and the beautiful person turns ugly.

What is, is not always what was, or what will be.

Who distinguishes between good and bad, if we don’t?

“So shall it be at the end of the world: the angels shall come forth, and sever the wicked from among the just.”-Matthew 13:49.

Every so often, Jesus reveals the meaning of his parables. Quite a few of these kingdom of heaven parables center around Judgment Day, what the Jews call the Day of the Lord. At first glance, this complicates matters for us, as we attempt to interpret scripture.

“But of that day and hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels of heaven, but my Father only.”-Matthew 24:36.

Jesus tells us plainly that we cannot understand, predict, or knowingly prepare for his Second Coming. Like D-Day, it remains a secret until it occurs.

“Take ye heed, watch and pray: for ye know not when the time is.”-Mark 13:33.

Jesus cautions us to prepare, while also warning us that we don’t know what will be on our ultimate test.

Over the years, many people attempted to interpret what day Jesus would come, and failed. We must accept our limitations; that is how we learn patience, and strengthen our faith.

“If I have told you earthly things, and ye believe not, how shall ye believe, if I tell you of heavenly things?”-John 3:12.

So far we’ve seen, by Jesus’ explanation, that the good fish are the “just” people; and the bad fish are the “wicked” people. We cannot judge these qualities, or the lack thereof, but we can (and do) commit good and wicked deeds.

Noah’s story introduces us to these basic definitions.

“…Noah was a just man and perfect in his generations, and Noah walked with God.”-Genesis 6:9.

The just person (the good fish) walks (or swims) with God.

“And GOD saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every imagination of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually.”-Genesis 6:5.

The wicked person (the bad fish) thinks and/or does evil.

Only in rare examples are people good or bad all the time. King David committed adultery; Jacob betrayed Esau: But Jesus descended from Jacob and David.

Since we all sin, there’s no such thing as a good person.

“For there is not a just man upon earth, that doeth good, and sinneth not.”-Ecclesiastes 7:20.

On the cross beside Jesus, the thief repented; in the whale’s belly, Jonah repented.

Since we can repent, there’s no such thing as an evil person.

“This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.”-Psalm 118:24.

God made everything, and continues to live as everything: the opportunity to sin, the sin itself, all that we call evil, and what we call good.

“I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.”-Isaiah 45:7.

Fill in the blank with whatever you choose: The is the ____ which the Lord hath made. Everything fits into that.

If we choose to not lie to ourselves, believing that we can differentiate good from bad, then we learn faith. And if we search for faith, we find patience; likewise, if we search for forgiveness, we find repentance.

The opposite of judging is accepting. We love what we accept. And we rejoice in what and whom we love. So we must not judge, because we’re only alienating ourselves from love.

“…Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.”-Matthew 25:40.

We don’t separate the good from the bad, the angels do.

To behave justly, We walk with God, as Noah did; and to walk with God, we follow Jesus.

“And he that sent me is with me: the Father hath not left me alone; for I do always those things that please him.”–John 8:29.

So our search is not really a search, but a parade: the love parade. Jesus leads us through his lessons. He teaches us to accept everything as being part of God, made by divine love.

And when he revealed the two most important commandments, he also hinted that they were really one and the same.

“…Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. / This is the first and great commandment. / And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.”-Matthew 22:37-39.

Therefore, when we behave justly, we love everyone and everything with all our heart, soul, and mind. Remember, we refer to behavior, as no one is good or wicked all the time.

In our lifetime, we search for the ingredients of our leaven, accepting all, good and bad, because there is no good and bad, only God.

“…Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you.”-Matthew 5:44.

When we behave wickedly, we do not rejoice in love, or in the acceptance and respect of all we encounter. This hurts us, as we deny ourselves the love that comes from loving others, and the blessing that comes from blessing others. Instead, by cursing others, we curse ourselves.

“And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed.”-Genesis 12:3.

Wickedness is not just a lack of morality, it is psychologically self-inflicted torture.

“But the wicked are like the troubled sea, when it cannot rest, whose waters cast up mire and dirt. / There is no peace, saith my God, to the wicked.”–Isaiah 57:20, 21.

We attempt to hurt others, by not loving them. We want to pay them back, an eye for an eye, for not loving us. With their corrupt leaven, they made their wicked bread, which they fed to us; our fishing net scooped up their bad fish.

This brings us to the final question we must face in our search for patience and repentance, our parade toward the kingdom of heaven, and the peace we find and share when we are born again.

What do with do with what we find?

“And [the angels] shall cast [the wicked] into the furnace of fire: there shall be wailing and gnashing of teeth.”-Matthew 13:50.

At last we reach the summit (one of them, at least), the heart of the matter. In our studies of the kingdom of heaven parables, we’ll see plenty more talk of this furnace, and the wailing and gnashing of teeth. So we can’t cover everything now, but we can attempt to establish a working understanding: not necessarily of the heavenly meaning, which is beyond us, but of the earthly meaning.

And it is this: In Jesus’ lessons, uselessness invites disaster; by being useful, we are born again.

“.…every tree which bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.”-Matthew 3:10.

So if the tree doesn’t bear good fruit, what kind of fruit do we get?

“.…every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.”-Matthew 7:17.

This is all the same teaching, phrased differently, and elaborated upon each time.

When we don’t judge, our indiscriminate fishing net takes in everything it comes across. The fish represent various behaviors (good and bad).

These fish are the fruits of our trees, the results of our works: whether we follow our own will, obeying ourselves, or if we follow God’s will, obeying God.

“And when he saw a fig tree in the way, he came to it, and found nothing thereon, but leaves only, and said unto it, Let no fruit grow on thee henceforward for ever. And presently the fig tree withered away.”-Matthew 21:19.

Our judgment appears to inform us of what is good, which we keep, and what is bad, which we burn like dead leaves. But our judgment deceives us.

“…Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do….”-Luke 23:34.

We lack the qualities of God needed to accurately judge. Sometimes we must decide: turn right or left, eat or starve, repent or not. Other judgments seem just as obvious to us, like whether a tree has borne fruit, or only leaves.

We can’t see the future. We don’t know whether or not the coward will heroically save the day tomorrow; perhaps they would, if only we hadn’t dismissed them, branding them as weak and worthless.

“And when ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars, be ye not troubled: for such things must needs be….”-Mark 13:7.

Tribulation occurs necessarily before the Second Coming, before we are born again. Only when hardship exhausts us, can we know the truth of our hearts. Only when God chooses us from the furnace of affliction do we know if our tree bears useful fruit, or useless leaves.

Useful fruit accepts love, and shares it with others. Corrupt fruit surrenders to base instincts: fighting for territory, tearing down what should be allowed to grow.

“For the Son of man shall come in the glory of his Father with his angels; and then he shall reward every man according to his works.”-Matthew 16:27.

If we love, Jesus rewards us with love. Therefore, by loving everyone and everything, we include ourselves, feeding ourselves with the good fish, the good fruit.

If we don’t love, we receive the absence of love, which is hate, corruption, and a hard, lonely heart. By hating and seeking to destroy everyone and everything, we include ourselves, destroying ourselves with the bad fish, the evil fruit, dooming our journey, resulting in Sodom.

Without love, we wail, and cry, and gnash our teeth. Our evil fruits torment us day and night, until we repent, by forgiving ourselves and others.

“I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth….”-Luke 15:7.

Among the few things we must choose, forgiveness determines what we find in our search, and what we do with what we find, if we have the patience to not judge.

We believe that we must be in control, and suffer deep anxiety when tribulation smites our lives, and hurls all we’ve worked for into the abyss, which we can’t reach, let alone control. But, as usual, we are wrong.

When life is out of our control, it lies beyond our will, and rests in God’s hands. When this happens, rejoice! What is impossible to us is possible with God. The Lord reaches into the abyss, and returns our lives to love, when we practice patience, faith, and forgiveness.

We do what we can. We wait; we search; we worry. We love when we can, and hate when we’re too exhausted, when the wolves have overrun the sheep. We leap for forgiveness, judging others and falling into the furnace, wailing and gnashing our teeth.

Finally, like Peter, when the storm overwhelms us, when we’ve tried and failed to walk on water, when our lives sink with Jonah’s whale, with no other recourse, we finally learn the lesson of humility, like Job. And we cry, Lord, save me!

Then we discover that our search is really a parade. God was with us all along: waiting for us to allow Jesus to cure our blindness, so that we see the rejuvenation of repentance; our deafness, so that we listen to the love in our hearts, and forgive the thief on the cross; and our inability to walk in His path, His way, which is really our way, if we only have the faith to accept the truth.

With this revelation, we are born again, accepting the good and bad fish, allowing God to do with us whatever the world needs to realize its rightful place as the kingdom of heaven.

Previously, in our study of the Kingdom of Heaven parables, Jesus taught how we mix leaven, the contents of our lives-thoughts, actions, emotions, what we love, or hate-into the dough, which we use to make our bread, the sustenance of our souls. We share this bread with others, and they share theirs with us. Our bread becomes their leaven, and vice versa.

Therefore, we must remain aware of what we do, think, and share. Leaven starts a chain reaction. Jesus described it as planting a mustard seed. The smallest seed, a seemingly insignificant grain (a word or an action) results in what kind of tree all the birds of the air call home.

To plant the seed, we spend our lives searching for and gathering the ingredients, what we’ll mix into our dough. So our search determines not only the destination and quality of our lives, but the whole tree: everyone, everything, what/whom we call God, life.

How we search, and what we seek, becomes who we are, and who we will be. Jesus compared this to treasure hunting.

“Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto treasure hid in a field; the which when a man hath found, he hideth, and for joy thereof goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth the field.”-Matthew 13:44.

He immediately followed this parable with another, which is so similar that we can look at both together. By noticing their similarities (and dissimilarities), we see the message behind them.

“Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls. / Who, when he found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had, and bought it.”-Matthew 13:45, 46.

Jesus began with the word again. Not only do each of these two parables repeat the message of the other, they also restate what all the Kingdom of Heaven parables declare, and bring to mind that all of Jesus’ teachings, and, indeed, everything in the Bible has but one message.

“And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.”-Jeremiah 29:13.

We find what we want and need, when we admit what we want and need. God wants us to know what’s in our hearts, to be honest with ourselves, each other, and Him. When we combine unconditional, nonjudmental love with honesty and humility, then we search with all our heart.

Again, not only one message, but all the lessons of the Bible have one goal.

“…Return unto me, and I will return unto you, saith the Lord of hosts….”–Malachi 3:7.

There are as many paths to God as there are people. Each lesson potentially appeals to one person. What makes you love without judgment? What inspires you to put aside childish tribalism, the us-versus-them mentality, and pursue an us-equals-them spirituality?

Return to love, and love will return to you. Whatever we turn to, it turns to us; whatever we seek and find, finds us: That’s the spiritual version of Newton’s law of motion for equal and opposite forces.

So if we turn to hate, then hate turns to us. We can’t control how others treat us, only how we treat them in return.

The single moral in all the Bible’s lessons (what it teaches again and again) is that we act without thinking. We lack mindfulness: We eat the forbidden fruit because it looks good; we crucify the unconditional love we’ve been waiting for, because we feel guilty for not practicing it.

Whatever path we take to loving one another, we must first be mindful. Mindful of what? That’s up to you. That’s your path. Whatever it takes for you to open the door, leave behind thoughtless judgment, and be born again.

…the kingdom of heaven is like unto….

Jesus never told us what God is, or what Heaven is, exactly, literally. He rarely spoke of God, instead referring to “Father.”

“As the living Father hath sent me, and I live by the Father: so he that eateth me, even he shall live by me.”-John 6:57.

In Gethsemane, he called God “Abba” (an Aramaic term used by Jewish children when talking with their father, like daddy for us).

“And he said, Abba, Father, all things are possible unto thee; take away this cup from me: nevertheless not what I will, but what thou wilt.”-Mark 14:36.

So the Lord is our Father, and we are his little children.

And Jesus gave reasons for these similes and parables.

“If I have told you earthly things, and ye believe not, how shall ye believe, if I tell you of heavenly things?”-John 3:12.

Instead of telling us what heaven is, Jesus teaches us what heaven is like, because it is here, on earth (with our mothers and fathers, and with each other) that we choose to search for war or peace, hate or love. It’s here, in our mortal lives that the irresistible force of a soft heart, and a firm mind, meets the immovable object of a hard heart.

We find this treasure, and reach this heavenly state of being reborn by accepting that we are mortal, short-lived, and ignorant of the infinite.

“LORD, make me to know mine end, and the measure of my days, what it is; that I may know how frail I am.”-Psalm 39:4.

God limits our time to search. We wither like grass, come and go like ripples in a stream. But our waves undulate into, and combine with others; our roots intertwine; birds fashion homes in our branches. We live forever, when we give love and life to others. This is what the kingdom of heaven is like.

After their opening lines, these two parables diverge.

…like unto treasure hid in a field….

…like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls.

The first one focuses on what the person seeks, while the second looks at the seeker. Both are important and equal. We are what we seek, and we seek what we are: equal and opposite.

What do you treasure? We answer this by being mindful of what we spend most of our time doing, feeling, and thinking.

“For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.”-Luke 12:34.

On the one hand:

The first parable tells us that God hides our treasure. We must search for it: honestly, unconditionally, and without judgment, accepting what we find.

The second one relates our occupation (and preoccupation) to our desire. We are what we do, and we do according to what we are.

“…for out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh.”-Matthew 12:34.

On the other hand:

Since the first parable speaks from the perspective of the treasure, and Jesus tells us how the Kingdom of Heaven is like the treasure, then as we search for it, it waits for us: equal and opposite.

It’s important to note that, when interpreting, we are potentially every character in the Bible. We are the Pharisees and the Apostles, Judas and Peter, the advocate and the adversary.

From the Gnostic text, “The Thunder, Perfect Mind”:

For I am the first and the last.

I am the honored one and the scorned one.

I am the whore and the holy one.

I am the wife and the virgin.

So as the treasure waits for us, we wait for it; and as we seek the goodly pearl, it seeks us.

Also, Jesus cautioned us: We get one master, one foremost love, one primary desire: one God.

“No servant can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other….”-Luke 16:13.

We can only search for one thing at a time. We can put no other gods before our one God. This is practical. If we multitask, we do nothing well; our mind strays from what we’re doing, to what we’re not doing.

So, what/whom do you love? Does your treasure, or the search for it, make you happy? Is your quest and devotion worthwhile?

We all have fingerprints; we have that in common. But all fingerprints are unique. This search is your unique fingerprint, your own personal covenant. Only you can know the answer.

Notice, I wrote can. It isn’t a given that we know what we’re doing. Actually, the reverse is usually true.

“Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do….”-Luke 23:34.

This is the moral of the whole Bible, as stated earlier.

The Bible reminds us to deliberately fix what we’ve mindlessly botched.

“Wherefore do ye spend money for that which is not bread? and your labour for that which satisfieth not? hearken diligently unto me, and eat ye that which is good, and let your soul delight itself in fatness.”-Isaiah 55:2.

We are what we seek, and we seek what we are: We are treasure hunters because we hunt treasure; we are the goodly pearl because that’s what we spend our lives searching for.

So when our lives seem out of whack, if we’re angry, depressed, suffering from ailments no doctor can accurately diagnose, like the sick woman who touched the hem of Jesus’ garment, and was healed….

“And [she] had suffered many things of many physicians, and had spent all that she had, and was nothing bettered, but rather grew worse.”-Mark 5:26.

…Then we have occupied ourselves with what doesn’t satisfy us. One engine powers your car. What is your engine?

…the [treasure] when a man hath found…..

…Who, when he found one pearl of great price….

Since we can only do one thing well, we must choose wisely. We sacrifice everything else for whatever we love most. The Bible’s moral warns us that we love without thinking.

“They shall put you out of the synagogues: yea, the time cometh, that whosoever killeth you will think that he doeth God service.”-John 16:2.

We love what we do, and we do what we love, even if we don’t know we’re doing it, or recognize that we love it.

If we search deliberately, mindfully, if we know what we’re seeking, what we treasure, and we are aware of what we love, then we find it.

And the treasure finds us.

“And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.”-Luke 11:9.

The single thing we love can be a group. If we love football, we love everything about it: passing, kicking, blocking, running. If we love listening to music, we love everything about it: harmony, disharmony, standard and nonstandard instruments, rhythm and poly-rhythm. If we love our family, then we love everything about it: children, spouse, parents and grandparents.

But if we love football, we don’t love baseball as much. If we love our family, then we don’t love strangers as much. If we love to sit and listen to music, then we don’t love dancing as much.

Whatever we love, we neglect everything else, to some degree: This is the first commandment.

“Thou shalt have no other gods before me.”-Exodus 20:3.

Ask yourself, if I had to choose between football and baseball, listening to music or dancing, family or a stranger, which would you choose? Whatever the answer, that’s what you love. There can be no other gods before the one you love.

There’s only one thing that, if we love it, then we love all things: God.

“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”-Matthew 6:33.

When we seek God, we love everything; and when we love everything, we find God. In this way, we love family and stranger.

…and for joy thereof [the treasure hunter] goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth the field.

…[the pearl merchant] went and sold all that he had, and bought [the pearl].

Since we sacrifice everything for the one pearl we love, we leave ourselves vulnerable to the one thing we love, and the absence of love from all other things. So if we don’t love everything, all the time, then hate becomes part of our search.

Hate destroys the soul, creates a mental imbalance, makes us sick, and fills our lives with anger, fear, depression, and gives us a bad back, tendonitis, nightmares, and anxieties without end. Hate invades our hearts, even when we put our family first, spend time with our children, care for the poor, homeless, sick, and imprisoned…if that’s all we love.

“He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.”-Matthew 10:37.

That curious quote makes sense now. If we put family first, then we don’t love everything else as much. And the absence of love is hate. This is the subtlety of evil. But when we love God, then we love family and stranger, football and baseball, listening to music and dancing, because the Lord is all of that and more.

“Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: / But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal.”-Matthew 6:19, 20.

The Bible reveals our oversights, and leads us on the way to the truth of who we are and what we do, and offers us life.

“For thus saith the Lord unto the house of Israel, Seek ye me, and ye shall live.”-Amos 5:4.

The only way to live is to love. When we realize this, and correct the oversight, we are born again. Jesus cures our blindness, enables us to walk in God’s path, and raises us from the death brought on by our hate.

To love like God, we must seek God.

“Shew me thy ways, O LORD; teach me thy paths.”-Psalm 25:4.

We learn at Jesus’ feet when we understand that we don’t know everything; no one knows everything; only everything knows everything. And so we forgive the blind when they stumble. Like the Good Samaritan, we have mercy on, and feel compassion for, those who get hurt while walking dangerous roads.

We discover God’s treasure when (1) we accept that (apart from how we search, and how we react) everything and everyone is out of our control, and (2) we put aside our ego, our self-righteous delusions that we, alone, matter.

This understanding and acceptance is the treasure in our parable, the greatest pearl in the world. And since we are what we seek, we are that treasure in God’s eyes.

“I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.”-Luke 15:7.

Given the equal and opposite nature of life, we realize that God also symbolizes the treasure and the treasure hunter. We are God’s treasure, just as the Lord is ours. God waits for us, and asks only that we wait for the will of the Lord to be done.

“The Serenity Prayer” summarizes what we learn and gain, when we make God’s will our search.

God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change,

the courage to change the things I can,

and the wisdom to know the difference.

This discovery is what it means to be born again. This is the way to love without leaving an opening for hate. And, thereby, we accomplish God’s will, and accept the responsibility for our will. As we hunt for treasure, we allow, and wait for, others to conduct their search.

“Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.”-Psalm 27:14.

While we search for the ingredients of our leaven (what we love), and what we love searches for us, and while we wait for what we love, and what we love waits for us, everyone else searches and waits as well. And God searches for them, and waits for them, as well as us.

We are all things in interpretation, but God is all things in actuality. So, to let the Lord’s will be done, we let others search, and we practice patience while they wait.

“Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.”-Matthew 6:10.

We search for the kingdom. We wait for the kingdom. We are the kingdom. And the kingdom searches and waits for us, because it is who we are. This revelation leads to the buried treasure, and is the way to eternal life through love.

Hallelujah, O my soul!

We nourish our lives in many different ways. Without water and the five food groups, our bodies weaken, sicken, and die. Without science, math, history, or any other intellectual pursuit, our minds weaken, sicken, and die.

We feed our souls with patience.

“In your patience possess ye your souls.”-Luke 21:19.

My “working definition” of the soul is this: the part of us that sees our connection to all things.

Without patience our souls weaken, sicken, and die. We must feed all of these aspects, as one connects to all, influencing everything we do, think, and feel.

We need a healthy soul, fed with lots of patience, in order to understand who we are, and to accept God’s will. When we refuse to be malnourished, and commit ourselves to a proper diet-feeding the body, mind, and soul-then we are born again.

“And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.”-Mark 12:30.

Jesus emphasized the importance of patience with this kingdom of heaven parable:

“Another parable spake he unto them; The kingdom of heaven is like unto leaven, which a woman took, and hid in three measures of meal, till the whole was leavened.”-Matthew 13:33.

Leaven is a little piece of dough left over from a previous baking, which ferments over time. Fermentation takes time.

When the three angels visited Abraham, on their way to destroy Sodom and Gomorrah….

“…Abraham hastened into the tent unto Sarah, and said, Make ready quickly three measures of fine meal, knead it, and make cakes upon the hearth.”-Genesis 18:16.

If we’re in a hurry, we don’t have time for fermentation. Leaven takes time. Three measures feeds three, and, therefore, is enough for more than just ourselves. Our bread feeds others.

Perhaps the most well-known example of unleavened bread comes from the Exodus.

“And they baked unleavened cakes of the dough which they brought forth out of Egypt, for it was not leavened; because they were thrust out of Egypt, and could not tarry, neither had they prepared for themselves any victual.”-Exodus 12:39.

When we hurry, we eat dull, tasteless, unleavened bread. Anything worth having, and worth savoring, requires patience. Leavened bread takes time. While we wait, we savor life and learn patience.

Though the sand in our hour glass seems to be abundant, we lose one grain per second. Each moment exists uniquely, and will never come again. We must savor every grain.

“As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth. / For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more.”-Psalm 103:15, 16.

Just as forgiveness shows love, and love allows for forgiveness, patience shows faith, and faith allows for patience. Whichever of these four we do, we are able to do the other three; one carries the blueprint for all.

“Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.”-James 1:3.

Patience allows for forgiveness, because we aren’t in a rush to judge. Love thrives on faith, because we allow God’s will to be done. Back and forth, like a dance; we exchange partners: patience for love, forgiveness for faith.

Faith clothes our souls with the garments woven by our actions. We are what we do, and what we think. Just as the Plains Indians used every part of the buffalo, we utilize every thought and action; we discard nothing.

“Seest thou how faith wrought with his works, and by works was faith made perfect?”-James 2:22.

Therefore, everything we do, or don’t do, makes us who we are.

This means our whole life determines our whole life. Simple and obvious, isn’t it? But our souls require a lifetime for the whole to be leavened.

Our own personal bread balances and harmonizes with all the billions of others. The whole world must be leavened, which takes time, and therefore we need patience.

This brings us back to love and forgiveness: coexistent harmony.

“For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: / But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.”-Matthew 6:14, 15.

This is not only a moral, spiritual imperative, but a psychological one as well. Even if we believe that our hearts resist sentimentality, and we show no outward sign of caring for others, our souls feel and record our every thought and action.

We discard nothing. We knead all of it into the dough.

As God promised Abraham:

“And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee….”-Genesis 12:3.

So does Jesus instruct us:

“Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.”-Luke 6:28.

When we curse others, life curses us; when we bless, life blesses us. The leaven we mix into our lives includes all the leaven that everyone else kneads into their lives.

If we curse or hate someone, even if we think we’ve hardened our hearts and feel nothing, then that discord ruins the harmony of our lives. Even if we don’t show it on the outside, we feel it on the inside.

What we feed others, feeds us.

So we must be mindful. When we do something wrong, our perspective shields us with assurances that we behaved properly. So we teach ourselves, without realizing it, to see evil for good, and good for evil.

“Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!”-Isaiah 5:20.

Thus, the woman in Jesus’ parable hides the leaven, and it works invisibly, affecting our souls and psychological well-being. It is in our best interest to love one another.

Our bread feeds three people; and their bread feeds three more; and theirs, three more. And so on, until we leaven the world.

“For God so loved the world….”-John 3:16.

This is why Jesus warned his disciples about the Pharisees’ doctrine.

“…Beware ye of the leaven of the Pharisees, which is hypocrisy.”-Luke 12:1.

Whatever we mix into our dough becomes our bread. And whatever we feed to others, becomes their bread, which we, in turn, consume and become.

“And Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall never hunger; and he that believeth on me shall never thirst.”-John 6:35.

To be born again, we must accept the bread of life: the Bible shorthand for which is love. And the truth is that love requires patience.

“Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed; / And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”–John 8:31, 32.

Jesus offers to teach us patience. And when we understand his lessons, the truth frees us from slavery to sin, and the agony our souls endure because of it.

Though we attempt to hide our sins in the dough, and convince ourselves they are of no consequence, a part of us knows we did something wrong.

“For thou hast trusted in thy wickedness: thou hast said, None seeth me. Thy wisdom and thy knowledge, it hath perverted thee; and thou hast said in thine heart, I am, and none else beside me.”-Isaiah 47:10.

We think no one sees us, but we see ourselves. The soul isn’t persuaded by our lies, and knows the truth. While we repress this inner self, it suffers and eats away at us: until we are hollow, heartless, loveless, and perpetually angry.

Our resultant inner guilt ruins the harmony of our world, and embitters our bread. We cannot purge this self-inflicted poison, if we don’t acknowledge it. We break the addiction, and purge the poison with understanding and acceptance of Jesus’ word: This takes a lot of time, with many false starts.

Patience is hard. Not giving in to our base instincts, which demand an eye for an eye, seems impossible. We must have faith in our faith, and be patient with our patience.

“.…Woe to the inhabiters of the earth and of the sea! for the devil is come down unto you, having great wrath, because he knoweth that he hath but a short time.”-Revelation 12:12.

We rush because we know that our time is short. So, in a way, we already acknowledge the importance of each moment. But our impatience results in anger, and contempt.

This is natural. Everyone goes through this. But, in our haste, we sacrifice the beauty of our lives, and the harmony of our souls.

“He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.”-Psalm 23:2.

Since our time is short, we shouldn’t ruin it with hate and impatience. We are here to love the green pastures and still waters.

I know how hard it is to be patient. I feel important when I rush: as if I’m off to save a princess from a dragon. Impatience makes me feel like my life is important. And it is!

“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.”-Ecclesiastes 3:1.

Our lives are too important to waste time by rushing. We lose what we’re trying to preserve. Love, and appreciation of each other and the world, takes time. But this is life. Impatience robs us of life. Since we know how important our time is, we need to mix mindfulness into our dough, and enjoy baking our bread.

Like the woman in this parable, Jesus hides life in our bread.

“He hath blinded their eyes, and hardened their heart; that they should not see with their eyes, nor understand with their heart, and be converted, and I should heal them.”-John 12:40.

He blinds us so we can learn to see with new eyes. He hardens our hearts to give us the choice, and opportunity, to soften our hearts.

If we do these things, if we love without thought of getting something in return, if we love because we love, and that’s what we do, then we see.

“And Jesus said, For judgment I am come into this world, that they which see not might see; and that they which see might be made blind.”-John 9:39.

We are born being able to see. To fit in and keep up with others, we blind ourselves with pride, ego, and impatience: all the lies we mix into our dough.

This is natural; everyone does it. And this is why Jesus came, why we have the Bible: to save us from the harm we unknowingly cause ourselves.

“…Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do….”-Luke 23:34.

This leaves us with the Bible’s primary lesson: how to mix our will with God’s will. The Bible teaches this in many different circumstances, with many different characters.

“These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full. / This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you.”-John 15:12.

The simplest way to understand God’s will is to follow Jesus’ commandment, because when we love one another, when we have the patience to do God’s will, we coexist in harmony with all things, with God. This is the good bread that feeds our souls.

“I am the living bread which came down from heaven: if any man eat of this bread, he shall live for ever: and the bread that I will give is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world.”-John 6:51.

So impatience comes because we know our time is short. Patience allows us to savor every bite of our bread. And we gain patience through faith, forgiveness, and love: all of which are interchangeable, and learned from each other.

The tough thing about patience is that it never ends. No matter how faithful, loving, or forgiving we were yesterday, today requires even more.

“Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.”-Matthew 6:34.

When we feel impatient, then stop. Take a deep breath. Look around. Congratulate the world on its beauty. Remember how small we are. Our importance lies not in our vanity, but in how much we love. Love feeds not just our soul, but all souls. Love leavens the world.

Remember, we teach ourselves, and learn from others, without knowing it: The woman hid the leaven. We must mindfully reverse what we’ve thoughtlessly learned.

Inhale the world’s beauty, let it fill your soul. When you exhale, release your impatience. Inhale the love of all things. Exhale judgments, anger, whatever separates you from the world, and everything in it.

We must remember Jesus’ first commandment, and balance what we feed our bodies, minds, and souls; and with it comes the second commandment, which is really identical to the first.

“And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.”-Matthew 22:39.

We provide a healthy diet for the body, mind, and soul by loving one another. We love by forgiving. With patience, we forgive. With faith, we learn patience. And we feed our faith with love, as we feed our souls with patience.

Impatience thinks only of tomorrow. Love exists right now, and now is all we really have. If we waste this moment, then we ruin the harmony of our souls, and what we’re rushing for in the first place: which is to get the most out of life.

Patience takes practice. We store food before the famine. If we wait until we’re swept up in the heat of the moment, if we learn nothing before the test, then we fail.

Learn now. Practice during easy moments: while waiting for coffee, or the stoplight. Inhale the moment. Exhale impatience for the next moment; it will come, and when it does, inhale it deeply. Love now with all your heart, soul, strength, and mind.

“He is not the God of the dead, but the God of the living….”-Mark 12:27.

God lives here…now…in you, and in me, the tree, the rock, your desk, my lamp, the sky, the clouds, every animal and person, every smell, taste, color, texture, all emotions, actions, and thoughts. Everything. Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is here. We are born again right now.

Patience sets us free from worrying about tomorrow. Forgiveness exhales the past, releasing us from guilt, anger, and judgments. Love knocks on the door…right now. Hear it? Open the door. That’s all we have to do.

Jesus began his ministry with a call to action, and a promise: the standard covenant of Christian life.

“…Repent: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.”-Matthew 4:17.

John the Baptist heralded the Lord’s coming with this same message.

“…Repent ye: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.”-Matthew 3:2.

To state their message plainly: Forgive and gain peace.

Without forgiveness, our mind struggles perpetually to obscure our guilt. We fight ourselves, when we don’t forgive ourselves; we fight each other, when we don’t forgive each other. Always fighting, never living.

Remember the forgiveness equation: Understanding + Acceptance = Forgiveness. Understand why someone did something wrong. We don’t have to agree with what they (or we) did. We just have to walk in their moccasins, and then accept it. It’s real. It happened. Accept it.

We all have our own personal covenant. Specifics vary. But that’s the standard for our side of our agreement with life, with God.

“These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace….”-John 16:33.

Just as God sent Moses to free his people from slavery to Egypt, God sent Jesus to free us from sin. Or, more precisely, Jesus’ teachings promise us that if we forgive, or show mercy, compassion, any form of love, then we gain all aspects of love.

“At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.”-John 14:20.

One small seed carries within itself the infinite tree of peace of mind. One part contains the blueprint for the whole.

Within that seed lies the kingdom of heaven.

“Another parable put he forth unto them, saying, The kingdom of heaven is like to a grain of mustard seed, which a man took and sowed in his field.”-Matthew 13:31.

My next-door neighbor, a very kind, widowed, elderly woman, loves puzzles. Her favorites are of 500 pieces. She saves the most beautiful of them-a tabby cat sleeping on a colorful quilt, a waterfall surrounded by a verdant forest, a flower field stretching into the distance-and frames them.

I asked her how she put together something so complicated, requiring so much patience. Her answer, with a wise, mischievous twinkle: “One piece at a time.”

We understand love this way. God reveals His will this way. We realize our potential, our capacity for good, and are reborn, reaching the kingdom of heaven, this way.

The mustard seed grows, from a seemingly insignificant grain, to a three-feet wide, twelve-feet tall tree. One seed, one puzzle piece, one act of good will; one small display of affection, to someone who feels unworthy; one nudge toward hope, for someone teetering on the edge of hopelessness: The seed grows this way.

“Which indeed is the least of all seeds: but when it is grown, it is the greatest among herbs, and becometh a tree, so that the birds of the air come and lodge in the branches thereof.”-Matthew 13:32.

All things start small: A great basketball player picks up a ball, and awkwardly dribbles it for the first time; a single blade of grass sprouts in a barren field, and heralds a sea of green; a future married couple meets and greets each other, and share a smile that becomes a lifetime; my neighbor chooses one puzzle piece, and places it on her table.

How do these things happen? Faith. Everything takes time. And as we wait, we must have faith.

“What doth it profit, my brethren, though a man say he hath faith, and have not works? can faith save him?”-James 2:14.

As we wait, and exercise our patience, allowing our faith to guide us, our works determine the fruit of our seeds. The awkward dribbler becomes a great basketball player by learning the game, and practicing it; the single blade of grass becomes the Great Plains with rainfall and good soil; if the future married couple spend their first dates arguing and sneering at each other, they won’t fall in love.

We accomplish faith’s purpose, the miracle of patience, by our works: one dribble at a time, one blade of grass, one smile, one kind act, one puzzle piece at a time.

A watched pot never boils. Why? Because the water boils by God’s will, not ours. Let God’s work be done, but also, we must do what we can to show our love and patience, with understanding and reverence for all.

“For every tree is known by his own fruit. For of thorns men do not gather figs, nor of a bramble bush gather they grapes.”-Luke 6:44.

The journey determines the destination. We might think it’s the other way around, that the destination limits how we get there. But since we don’t know the future, or have any idea where we’re going, and all we have is now, the successive series of now moments determines the result. The tree’s fruit depends on what we plant, and how we care for that which we sowed.

“And the Lord said, If ye had faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye might say unto this sycamine tree, Be thou plucked up by the root, and be thou planted in the sea; and it should obey you.”-Luke 17:6.

Faith works the miracle of mindfulness.

The child plays for the love of the game; the single blade of grass cannot control the growth of the field; we enjoy the first date by focusing on nothing else; my neighbor places the second puzzle piece on her table, not bothered that it is unconnected (at the moment) to the first.

Love every moment. That is life. Everything else derives from the nature of our love. In order for our seed to grow, we must allow for, and enable it to grow. The result is that everyone, all the birds of the air, feel our love and patience.

This parable reminds me of one of Daniel’s beautiful dreams.

“Thus were the visions of mine head in my bed; I saw, and behold a tree in the midst of the earth, and the height thereof was great. / The tree grew, and was strong, and the height thereof reached unto heaven, and the sight thereof to the end of all the earth: / The leaves thereof were fair, and the fruit thereof much, and in it was meat for all: the beasts of the field had shadow under it, and the fowls of the heaven dwelt in the boughs thereof, and all flesh was fed of it.”-Daniel 4:10-12.

With forgiveness, we plant the seed in a field made barren by our shame and anger. This is the beginning, which is rebirth, seeing with new eyes.

“And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.”-Genesis 1:2.

Our forgiveness gives birth to our faith. With faith, our patience grows.

“In your patience possess ye your souls.”-Luke 21:19.

With patience comes the first dribble, the first blade of grass, the first smile, the first puzzle piece. And with the first step, darkness gives way to light.

“In him was life; and the life was the light of men.”-John 1:4.

When we work with the soil, and the seasons (instead of against nature), accepting the rain, preparing for the famine, the seed sprouts.

“For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also.”-James 2:26.

If we sit back and do nothing, our faith dies in its infancy. Only by forgiveness will our seed grow. This is our call to action, our side of the covenant.

“Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.”–Revelation 3:20.

With our love, we open the door, keeping our side of the agreement. The rest is glorious, miraculous. Our eyes see the coming of the Lord. Our tree grows. When the birds see how our tree offers sweet life, instead of bitter hatred, they nest in our branches.

When the animals see shade beneath our tree, instead of more heat, more hate, they rest with us. They lower their defenses, and learn to forgive by our example.

“But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and [reverence].”-1 Peter 3:15.

Jesus is our shepherd. And as the sheep of his flock, we shepherd others. This is ministry. This is how we further our works, by showing others that they have the seed to plant their own tree. In this way, they create their covenant with God.

One seed grows more seeds. With each, the process renews itself; we are born again; they are reborn. With every revelation, a new genesis occurs. Another tree sprouts beside ours, and another, until the field no longer lies barren, but shines with the light of life.

“And I saw a new heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away….”-Revelation 21:1.

Our trees grow exponentially until all are of one root, one canopy. This is the great tree Daniel dreamed of, what Jesus promised. This is God’s part of our covenant.

“And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.”-Revelation 21:4.

This is what born again means. And all it takes is one small seed.

Plant yours today. Forgive. Have faith. Spread the word through your actions. Keep your side of the bargain, and God will keep His.

(This one is a little long. For a speedy reading, start with part 1, part 2, and part 3. Peace be with you.)

Every day God tests us, and offers us the chance to be born again: If we fail, and yet repent, we get another test; if we pass, yet sin again, we get another test; if we pass, and stay true to Jesus’ teachings, then we gain access to more difficult tests-with every one of these, we are born again.

When we succeed, we enter the Promised Land. And with every success, we conquer another city, another weakness. When we fail, we wander in the wilderness, until we pass…over the Jordan river, into a land flowing with milk and honey.

Before we pass over, and see Heaven as Jesus described it, we must pause and acknowledge God’s glory: For Moses failed that test, and the Lord refused him access. We must learn from Moses, then we move forward.

“And he that sent me is with me: the Father hath not left me alone; for I do always those things that please him.”-John 8:29.

We are reborn, with a new purpose and perspective, when we seek to please God. But how can we know His will?

He placed the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil in the center of Eden (Genesis 3:3), where Adam and Eve couldn’t miss it. He made all creatures (Genesis 1:25), and so He made the serpent. He knows the future (Isaiah 45:11), and, therefore, knew they ate the fruit. Why punish them when He made them and their desires (Exodus 14:17)?

The Old Testament confronts us, again and again, with God’s inexplicable will.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD.”-Isaiah 55:8.

To understand, we must accept that we’re unable to understand.

Humility is paramount. Remember Moses and the burning bush.

“And he said, Draw not nigh hither: put off thy shoes from off thy feet, for the place whereon thou standest is holy ground.”-Exodus 3:5.

If we insist, persist in our self-important ways, then we fail to acknowledge everyone else: Life becomes (and has become) a pointless, endless battle of wills, wherein we insist that others believe as we do. Many paths exist to the right answer, but there is only one answer.

Love is the answer, and love is God’s will.

“By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.”-John 13:35.

When we fail to receive and share love, then we sin: Party A shows love; party B chooses whether or not to acknowledge it. Round and round. Forever. In the Old Testament, the children of Israel failed in both receiving and sharing God’s will; taking this as an allegory, we are the Israelites. What happened to them is now happening to us.

“Because all those men which have seen my glory, and my miracles, which I did in Egypt and in the wilderness, and have tempted me now these ten times, and have not hearkened to my voice; / Surely they shall not see the land which I sware unto their fathers, neither shall any of them that provoked me see it.”-Numbers 14:22, 23.

Glorify God: Acknowledge His will, praise His love. When someone says, I love you, we say, I love you too. When we see the Lord’s glory, and witness miracles, when we’re saved from slavery to sin, deafness to mercy, or blindness to suffering, be thankful.

Ten lepers approached Jesus, and begged to be healed.

“And when he saw them, he said unto them, Go shew yourselves unto the priests. And it came to pass, that, as they went, they were cleansed. / And one of them, when he saw that he was healed, turned back, and with a loud voice glorified God.”-Luke 17:14, 15.

Only one of the cured, the saved acknowledged the miracle, thanking God.

Whatever happens, it is love: God’s will, a miracle. We misunderstand what miracles are. We misunderstand everything when we live by our own will. We think of miracles as being out of the ordinary, which is true, to an extent; they are beyond our capabilities.

“For with God nothing shall be impossible.”-Luke 1:37.

His ways are not our ways. But if we start with love, and stay mindful of how to share and receive it, and understand that we do not understand, then our blind eyes see.

“And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.”-John 3:19

We don’t want to be healed, because healing requires work, and admitting we were wrong. We’d rather follow our own limited understanding, even if that means wandering in the wilderness, never reaching the Promised Land of milk and honey. This is our pride, which is a lie; humility is true wisdom.

“Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!”-Isaiah 5:20.

Pride blinds us and leads us astray. We are so turned around, and lost in the wilderness, we can no longer find our way. Like the Pharisees in the Gospels, we fail to recognize our savior.

“He came unto his own, and his own received him not.”-John 1:11.

The answers we get depend on the questions we ask.

“Thomas saith unto him, Lord, we know not whither thou goest; and how can we know the way? / Jesus saith unto him, I am the way….”-John 14:5, 6.

When we fail the tests, and lose our sense of direction, we lose hope, which happened to the children of Israel.

“Moreover thou hast not brought us into a land that floweth with milk and honey, or given us inheritance of fields and vineyards…. // And wherefore have ye made us to come up out of Egypt, to bring us in unto this evil place? It is no place of seed, or of figs, or of vines, or of pomegranates; neither is there any water to drink.”-Numbers 16:14; 20:5.

Patience isn’t waiting; it’s how we act while we wait.

“In your patience possess ye your souls.”-Luke 21:19.

Patience is our faith in God, ourselves, and each other. Patience is our greatest test, because only when we suffer from fatigue and frustration do we see ourselves at our worst; and our best can only be known when we’re at our worst.

After they failed ten times, and God punished them by making them wander for 40 years, the Israelites failed again. Instead of correcting their weak points, as we do in school, they refused to study, and failed again.

We only get so many do-overs. Our tests are meant to prepare us for a greater trial: This is God’s mercy, and promise to not give us more than we can handle. But when we meet our ultimate test unprepared, because we didn’t study after flunking each daily quiz, the result is catastrophic. God doesn’t punish us so much as we punish ourselves. Jesus doesn’t condemn us, rather, we condemn ourselves.

“For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.”-John 3:17.

One ultimate trial leads to another, and another. If we fail to understand arithmetic, then we can’t do algebra. And if we don’t understand multiplication, then we can’t do trigonometry. Without algebra and trigonometry, we’re unable to understand calculus. Eventually, we flunk out of the math program.

Such a catastrophe came upon Moses and the Israelites.

“But as for you, your carcases, they shall fall in the wilderness.”-Numbers 14:32.

They failed too many times, pushed God too far. Failures multiply, just as successes do.

Remember, God placed his power in Moses’ staff.

“And thou shalt take this rod in thine hand, wherewith thou shalt do signs.”-Exodus 4:17.

With that staff, Moses used God’s power to turn Egypt’s water into blood, part the Red Sea, and so on.

With the Israelites once again complaining, demanding water, even after God sentenced them to 40 years in the wilderness of Sinai (that is, Sin), Moses took his ultimate, final test; all others led to this one. Everything he saw, heard, and accomplished came down to one decisive moment.

And he failed.

“And the Lord spake unto Moses, saying, / Take the rod, and gather thou the assembly together, thou and Aaron thy brother, and speak ye unto the rock before their eyes; and it shall give forth his water, and thou shalt bring forth to them water out of the rock: so thou shalt give the congregation and their beasts drink.”-Numbers 20:7, 8.

There is no nourishment in the valley of the shadow of death, except love.

“I am that bread of life.”-John 6:48.

Jesus is the living water, the miracle manna, the pillar of fire guiding us at night, and the cloud leading us by day.

“And the LORD went before them by day in a pillar of a cloud, to lead them the way; and by night in a pillar of fire, to give them light; to go by day and night.”-Exodus 13:21.

Believing Jesus is the bread of life is not enough. Anyone can believe anything, or claim they do.

“This people draweth nigh unto me with their mouth, and honoureth me with their lips; but their heart is far from me.”-Matthew 15:8.

I know, at the end of Mark, we’re told….

“He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned.”-Mark 16:16.

But Mark’s gospel is the only one to end with such a simplified summary of Jesus. In the others, Jesus tells his apostles, and us, to do as He did, to share and teach what He taught.

“…freely ye have received, freely give.”-Matthew 10:8.

So we can’t stop with Mark. After all, what does it mean to believe? How are we saved? By what means are we damned? If we follow our own interpretation, if we make up our own minds as to the definitions of these crucial concepts, then, even in our supposed piety, we’ve sinned-because we’ve followed our will, not God’s.

“Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? / And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.”-Matthew 7:22, 23.

Jesus warns us here about our beliefs: They mean nothing without love in our hearts, and the actions to share our love.

“And he answered and said unto them, My mother and my brethren are these which hear the word of God, and do it.”-Luke 8:21.

.This is how Moses failed his final test, and why God refused him access to the Promised Land. He failed in his actions. His pride conquered his humility.

The greatest of us fail to do God’s will, which is to love one another: Adam, who was the son of God (Luke 3:38) followed his own will, and Eve’s; King David sent a good, honest man on a suicide mission, killing him, to satisfy David’s adulterous lust for that man’s wife, Bathsheba (2 Samuel 11:3, 15, 24); Sampson betrayed his Nazarite oath (Numbers 6:2-21; Judges 13:4, 5; 16:17); and Jacob, whom God renamed Israel (Genesis 32:28), tricked his brother (Genesis 25:33) and father (Genesis 27:19); Judas betrayed Jesus with a kiss. We don’t think too highly of Judas, of course, but he was one of the twelve.

Everything is God’s will; accept that, and, thereby, answer all your questions.

“For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; neither hid, that shall not be known.”-Luke 12:2.

Solomon was born of the illicit union between David and Bathsheba (2 Samuel 12:24). Solomon’s forbidden affair and marriage (Dueteronomy 7:1, 3) with an Ammorite Princess, Naamah, produced their son, Rehoboam (1 Kings 14:21).

“And the key of the house of David will I lay upon his shoulder; so he shall open, and none shall shut; and he shall shut, none shall open.”-Isaiah 22:22.

Joseph, Jesus’ earthly father, descended from Rehoboam (Matthew 1:7, 16). So if David and Solomon had not defied God’s will, then we would be without Jesus. If Jacob had not been so sneaky, crafty, and full of deceit, then we would be without the twelve tribes of Israel, and, again, without Jesus.

How can the ultimate good come from lies, murder, and adultery? All we can do is look to the Bible.

“I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.”-Isaiah 45:7.

God is so much more than all of us, throughout all time, have ever dreamed.

“…he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.”-Matthew 5:45.

God created evil: We can’t blame it on “the Devil.” What’s more, God loves evil people, and good people.

“The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.”-John 10:10.

Jesus came for all of us, but especially for the lost sheep. His love for us is God’s love, which exists for all: the whole world.

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”-John 3:16.

Nevertheless, Judgment Day comes. We judge and condemn ourselves by our actions, that is, whether or not we share and acknowledge love.

What follows is Moses’ Judgment Day.

“And Moses and Aaron gathered the congregation together before the rock, and he said unto them, Hear now, ye rebels; must we fetch you water out of this rock? / And Moses lifted up his hand, and with his rod he smote the rock twice: and the water came out abundantly, and the congregation drank, and their beasts also.”-Numbers 20:10, 11.

Did you catch it? Did you see Moses’ mistake? Read it again.

Moses sinned by what he did and said. Why?

He made a joke; that’s all. He never did anything wrong. He angered God a little, at the beginning, by the burning bush.

Like Jonah, Moses didn’t want to accept his calling.

What if you heard a voice from a burning bush, which wasn’t consumed by the flame, telling you to rescue an entire nation from (at the time) the greatest military power on earth? He kept saying, I can’t do it; it won’t work; I can’t even talk right.

“And the anger of the LORD was kindled against Moses, and he said, Is not Aaron the Levite thy brother? I know that he can speak well….”-Exodus 4:14.

But, afterwards, he did every crazy thing God wanted him to do.

God loved Moses.

“And the Lord spake unto Moses face to face, as a man speaketh unto his friend.”-Exodus 33:11.

Face to face! No other prophet could claim such a thing. Moses is the ultimate hero of the Jews and the Old Testament. So what went wrong?

“And the LORD spake unto Moses and Aaron, Because ye believed me not, to sanctify me in the eyes of the children of Israel, therefore ye shall not bring this congregation into the land which I have given them.”-Numbers 20:12.

Did you catch it? Did you understand what God said, and what Moses did wrong?

The truth is very simple, once we accept it. And acceptance is essential to being born again, because, with it, we love what we don’t understand.

Acceptance comes from humility, without which we’d be unable to enter the Promised Land, and follow God’s will by loving one another.

Remember the ten lepers.

Why do we say, I love you too, when someone says they love us?

Why did God harden Pharaoh’s heart, and plague Egypt?

“And in very deed for this cause have I raised thee up, for to shew in thee my power; and that my name may be declared throughout all the earth.”-Exodus 9:16.

Why did Jesus wait two days, after hearing that Lazarus was sick and dying? Indeed, Jesus waited until Lazarus died, before saving him. Why?

“…This sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that the Son of God might be glorified thereby.”-John 11:4

And why did Jesus come at all?

“…If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.”-John 14:23.

He came to teach us to accept and share love, to praise God, and acknowledge that His will was done, which is Bible shorthand for us sharing love.

Having love in our hearts means nothing, if we don’t share it. Believing in Jesus means nothing, if we don’t follow his teachings. Saying, Thy will be done, means very little if we don’t also stop and see His miracles, accept His will, and understand it is good.

“.…and God saw that it was good.”-Genesis 1:10.

We acknowledge God’s will by doing God’s will. And we do God’s will by loving every one and every thing.

Therefore, if we hate each other, or we’re indifferent, unmoved by suffering, then we aren’t returning the love that God gives freely.

If we take credit for what God did, which was Moses’ big mistake, then we have not only failed to acknowledge the Lord, but have failed to witness and minister that supreme love to others.

The Father gave this work to His Son.

“I have glorified thee on the earth: I have finished the work which thou gavest me to do.”-John 17:4.

Like the children of Israel, Jesus’ story is an allegory for our lives.

“And thou shalt say unto Pharaoh, Thus saith the LORD, Israel is my son, even my firstborn.”-Exodus 4:22.

If the Israelites are an allegory for us, and Jesus is our model, our example of how to live with and love one another….

“For I have given you an example, that ye should do as I have done to you.”-John 13:15.

…Then we are God’s firstborn. Or, perhaps, rather, He loves us that much. And what is God, but everything, the entire universe? When everything says they love us, how do we respond? I love you, too.

This response is praise, glorification, acceptance, and humility, in knowing that the vast, mind-bogglingly huge universe loves us; and all It requires is that we don’t praise ourselves, but return love to It, by sharing love with everything.

Like the Pharisee (in Jesus’ parable about the Pharisee and the Publican), Moses praised himself, and Aaron-who was also denied entrance into the Promised Land (Numbers 20:24). Since Jesus, Moses, and the Israelites are all meant to be our examples, the work that the Father gave the Son is the work that Jesus gives to us.

Every day God tests us with more work to do. He does this out of love, to prepare us, strengthen us for our greater trials. Think of them as “pop quizzes.”

“Be ye therefore ready also: for the Son of man cometh at an hour when ye think not.”-Luke 12:40.

Our best is only as good as our worst. Fatigue and frustration often accompany Judgment Day. And at such times, we are at our worst. When we are tired, we tend to be more honest, even brutally so. Our defenses collapse, our well-meaning intentions vanish, and what’s left is not what we wish to be, or what we’re supposed to be, but what we truly are.

Not a pretty picture. But Jesus loves the truth. I am the truth, He said. God loves us for who we are. He loves the thief and the murderer, the publican, prostitutes, Catholics, Protestants, Atheists, Buddhists, black, brown, yellow, white, and so on: everything.

He loves us when we are born again, and when we’re not ready. Perhaps, the reason why we’re unable to understand God’s will is because we can’t comprehend, or act on, such all-embracing love.

“ Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.”-Matthew 5:48.

Jesus said we could understand such love, eventually. But it takes a lot of work. We possess a natural, instinctual love. If we refuse to work on it, if we ignore it, then the “talent” remains in its infant stage.

“For whosoever hath, to him shall be given, and he shall have more abundance: but whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken away even that he hath.”-Matthew 13:12.

But if we use that talent, it grows.

So here is the challenge, the key to the door, the narrow path that leads to Paradise, being born again, the Kingdom of Heaven:

When God says, I love you: Stop, feel that love all the way down to your soul; know that love sometimes plagues us, like with Pharaoh in Egypt, but it is still love, which is the greatest gift-because we receive love by sharing it. So stop, and say, I love you, too.

And sing along with King David:

“I delight to do thy will, O my God: yea, thy law is within my heart.”-Psalm 40:8.

We must learn from our mistakes, accept our sin, even if it means we never get to pass over the Jordan. Learn from Moses:

“I pray thee, let me go over, and see the good land that is beyond Jordan, that goodly mountain, and Lebanon.”-Deuteronomy 3:25.

The best of us sin; and our greatest repent. Repentance is the key that opens the door.

“Then said Jesus unto them again, Verily, verily, I say unto you, I am the door of the sheep.”-John 10:7.

God forgave Moses, and granted his last request. He led Moses to the top of a mountain.

“And the LORD said unto him, This is the land which I sware unto Abraham, unto Isaac, and unto Jacob, saying, I will give it unto thy seed: I have caused thee to see it with thine eyes, but thou shalt not go over thither.”-Deuteronomy 34:4.

Old, frail, exhausted, traumatized, on the line between wilderness and paradise, Moses gazed at what he’d given his life for, so that others could be born again.

What did he see?

He saw a mustard seed grow into a huge tree, in which everyone, all the birds of the air, nested and made their abodes.

He saw leaven, which no one else could see, ferment and work its way through dough: invisible, inexorable.

He saw hidden treasure in an abandoned field, and a man who sold everything he owned, to buy the field and gain the treasure.

He saw the largest, most luxurious pearl, shining, gleaming, a sun unto itself, and a man who sold everything he owned, to buy that pearl.

He saw a massive wheat field, with weeds intermingled, attempting to choke the life out of the wheat; and the harvesters separated the wheat from the chaff, tossing the weeds into the furnace.

He saw a great net, pulled through the waters, through the milk and honey, gathering good fish and bad fish; the fishermen kept the useful, and threw the useless back into the deep, the wilderness of waters.

He saw a great feast, to which everyone who’d been invited, refused to attend. And so the poor were brought in, the maimed, the sinners, publicans, prostitutes, murderers, all who hungered and thirsted after righteousness, but whom, to the human eye, were lost and hopeless.

He saw the owner of a vineyard leave his garden to workers, sending messengers to collect what was owed; and the workers stoned one, tossed another off a cliff; and then the owner sent his son, but the workers crucified him, seeking to gain the inheritance for themselves.

He saw “…the Son of man coming in the clouds with great power and glory.”-Mark 13:26.

He saw the Kingdom of Heaven. And so will you. Amen.